Stay Home Sunday

I was really glad that I stayed at home last Sunday instead of trying to go out again. It has been a really long time since I last stayed home on my day off. Thinking that I will save money if I don't go out was WRONG! I spent money at home.. on my xbox live account. Sigh.

Feeling really guilty everytime I looked at my xbox for I have not accompanied him for a really long time. I mean, I used to play with him almost on my every off day unless I'm going out. So I could almost feel him jumping in joy, beaming away his green light when I picked up my controller. Haha. We misses each other.

I had decided to renew my xbox Gold membership so that I could play online again and enjoy the perks again. Ok... I just missed being on the Gold account. I was hoping that Xbox will have the promotion for renewal programme just like what I'd gotten 3 years back where they offered a 3 years promotion for $X. It was really convenient and cheaper plus I do not have to renew it for 3 years! I removed my card details because I do not want Xbox to do the auto renewal in case they are having some good promotions for Gold membership.

Here comes my Gold Membership again!! Oh, this screen shot was taken with my Asus Transformer! Isn't that cool? Hell, it makes things going a lot easier for me now! :D

I also bought some points at the same time. I was calculating whether was it cheaper to buy more points or just what I need. In the end, I realised that they all costs the same. Perhaps the Xbox team might want to consider doing some promotion for buying more points instead of just making them cost all the same whether you buy 500 points only or 5000 points. Like some perks you know? Buying more points = buying more xbox arcade / Online games. Anyway, I went ahead and bought the 5000 points one because there are quite a number of arcade games I wanted to get.

So it was a good Sunday for me. Stayed home, relax and played games. Oh! And my mom gotten someone to paint the ceiling for they were peeling off like mad. So until now, the room still smell like it's been renovated, like fresh paint smell. :)

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Anyway, I was wondering, why do people say mean things to the person they care for the most and best part is, they do not mean it. It just spew out of their mouth.

Is it because they are being hurt and angry?

Why huh?

If someone mean to change, will they really change? Can they? Or was it just a temporary phase only and will return to their old self?

Do they mean it?

Or they stay because they feel comfortable only and nothing more?

So many uncertainties.

Please post something here.

It has been some time since I had last posted something here.

Because sometimes I do not feel like letting a particular person to read what is happening right now. If you have the ability, please go ahead and do what you have been doing, if you are able to achieve something, I'd applause you. For from the start, you should know what is going to happen.

I don't really care. And I hope that person will stop asking that someone to read my blog for if that someone wants to, they will read it religiously.

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Anyway, I had lunch at the Carousel, Royal Plaza @ Scotts. It was the Spanish fare until August. Didn't really like the food although my date seemed to enjoy it very much. It must be the prawns. Prawns jumping on the frying pan. Wish I took a video of the whole process. Anyway, it was quite disappointing for me. It must have been nearly 10 years since my first and only visit to the Carousel with dajie and her then-colleagues. I would say it was a pleasant memory and I wish it could stay that way. I remembered enjoying the company and the food, especially! I can't really say my company that day was a bad one but it was the food... Bleh. I would like to return for porridge at Goodwood Park Hotel and buffet at The Line again. Fond memories and Mr Tan made it so.


So, my date took some random photos of me and I had decided to post them up here. Don't really care if I look fat. Hah!


Which station should I attack?

Nope, not sleeping. Not yet.

Hmmmm... drink plain water. Good for my throat...

Can't eat much desserts. Sux big time.

I realise the desserts are quite limited there.. Or was it just me? Sure, there were a lot of cakes but.. maybe not quite what I'd expected?

Some of the places that I loved to go had become history because they were tainted by someone. Damn. I should be glad that I kept some of my favourite to-go places a secret where it will be visited only by me and my special friend(s). Hell yeah!!!

Pretty sad that one particular place where Gabby brought me to... could not be revisited anymore for I must admit, the food there was quite good.

Damn. I shall just keep my special places all to myself and not share it with someone else for fear of 'pollution'.

Anyway I shall keep this short. For I still do not have the mood to type anymore here.

Should I just move my blog to another server?

F**k.
















Many times, I wish I could do something to that person.

Yet, sometimes I could be wondering what is that person thinking; feeling; doing?

Guess that is just me.

Weird.

Crazy.

I just wish that person will stop reading my blog one day.

CAN YOU DO THAT?

CAN YOU STOP READING MY BLOG?

JUST.STOP.READING?









Or do I have to spell you out?

Beachy time!

I was glad to have indirectly arranged the meet up because I felt that it has been quite a while since the group has their last meet up and the only time everyone could make it was on a special occasion. And I was glad that I could make it. It was really fun playing under the sun, getting burn (and feel the pain later. haha), getting tan and playing beach volleyball!!!!!!! It has been ages since I last played it.. that would be 4 years back? Haha. It is a pity that I did not get to play in the water, I would love to take a dip in the sea water. When a separate group asked us to join them while we were waiting for the rest to arrive, I was feeling very nervous because I am a NOOB and they were like, season players. My thoughts went: What if I screw up and made my team lose? What if I can't hit the ball? What if.... Many what ifs. I felt stress to perform and sometimes I couldn't 'feel' which direction is the ball coming. Will it be coming to my side? It was all good, they were really patient with me and I felt that I really sucked.

Frankly speaking, I felt really relieved when the rest arrived and our game was coming to an end soon. We played on our own and they were really really patient with me by letting me do a take 3 on serving the ball. Somehow no matter how hard I try, I couldn't get the ball over or it gets served over to the other side but it was all out of court. All in all, the event was quite fulfilling, I learned some things about volleyball and learned to serve although I need many more practices which means more beach outing!!

So many things I want to do. I want to hike again (missed the time where I hiked for 2 hours up a mountain in Japan), I want to bike around in Pulau Ubin again, I want to play badminton again, I want to play in the beach again.

 

Got burned on the day itself! Loving it!!! Now the skin is peeling and I wished my burns are on a more... easily accessible area so that I can peel them off!

 

Ate yummy ramen. It was a small shop just like those in Japan and I loved it! The place was quite similar to the one I had near the Gallery Hotel.

S was so sweet to have remembered my birthday and went to buy a gift for me during her trip to U.S.A!! I couldn't bear to use my two new gifts because I do not want to dirty it and such coincidence was, both gifts are from the same brand and are from two of the nicest people I love. This year would be my best birthday because I'd received gifts from the sweetest people as well as some taking time to celebrate with me! :)

 

I had a movie/supper date with D! Finally, after one year then we meet up and he still has the cheek to say our next meet up will be a year later, like some annual event. =.= So exclusive huh.

We went to watch 'Pee Mak'. I can't say I enjoyed the show because it was quite boring, although there were some funny parts. The ferris wheel scene would be the one that I paid quite a bit of attention to. Perhaps it was the music that caught my attention, meaningful lyrics that matches what the female character was feeling then or the dialogue between the two of them. That, no matter in life or death, their love towards each other was so strong that nothing can keep them apart. The character in the show was scared of ghosts, and when he saw her true self, he did not turn away, he did not exorcist her, he did not shun her because he loved her. Instead, he accepted her the way she was. It was quite touching.

 

Regrets.Opportunities

Before I continue typing contents that related to my subject, I realised that I have some photos that I have yet to post up here. Marking the end of any pending photos taken in 2012 that I have yet to upload here.

December 2012

We decided to have a Christmas dinner with mummy E. Initial choice was at Copthorne Waterfront, however we decided on Prego instead. I must admit that I did not know the Christmas menu was so expensive! The whole dinner for just the 4 of our (both mummies came and ate together instead) cost around $600!

Menu was totally changed with free flow of desert and appetizers.

Meat!!!

Very fresh oysters and prawns. Mummy E loves it!

 

Christmas dishes!

At the end of the dinner, there was this choir who came in, set up and started singing. It was really cute and made the whole place had the Christmas feel. What's missing was the crowd - it wasn't very crowded by the time we reached the destination and snow.

Well, that will be our first and last time having Christmas dinner at Prego except for normal occasion. I sure hope that Prego will be a place just for the two of us or with friends but not with any outsiders.

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January 2013

Finally I get to post some photos for this year and hope I will have the time to post 2013 photos by the end of the year instead of bringing it forward to the next year. Not forgetting to post the day's events instead of dragging it forward to the next few months and forgetting what actually happened.

Anyway I haven't been taking much photos now, except with the convenience of the camera that comes with our mobile phones. Sometimes it also makes uploading of photos into blog posts much easier and should I need to edit any of the photos, it will be done using 'Instagram' unless there's a need to remove certain bits of details. If you'd noticed, most of my photos that goes with my posts are quite updated now. :)

With the opening of the Gardens by the Bay, we decided to take a train over, have our lunch at Marina Bay Sands before walking over to the Gardens.

Taking the circle line to Bayfront. How convenient!

Lunch time at DTF!

There was an underground linkway from MBS to the Gardens. By the time we hit the other end, it was already raining. It wasn't a light rain nor a heavy one but one that is enough to soak you should you stay out long enough without shelter.

From where we were standing, we could see the Marina Bay Sands Hotel. I do wish to stay there for just a night!

The closest we managed to get to the Gardens is by looking from the shelter. We decided to head back because of the rain. It doesn't seem to be going away anytime soon and I guess no point walking in the rain while trying to enjoy the flowers and trees and having your camera soaked by the rain water.

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Back to my original post.

What is it about regrets and opportunities?

It can be anything small that does not really affect your life but it can be big enough to change your life.

Sometimes when one is given plenty of chances, one tend to take it for granted that the chance will still come and one will still have the option to choose whether to accept or to push it away, with the thinking that chance will come knocking on your door again.

However, that may not be the case. If one is being given too many chances, chance might stop showing itself one day and move on to the next person who will most likely appreciate it and accept chance with an open arms. That, will lead one to regret. Why didn't one accept the one chance of an opportunity? Why did one keeps pushing the many chances of opportunities away?

A person may say things they don't mean in a fit of anger which sometimes could be quite harsh, sometimes not. What if the person is unable to accept what the person who said mean things in a fit of anger? What would be the consequences? Loss of friendship? Loss of colleague? Loss of opportunity? Loss of a potential partner? Loss of a person you love? 

Yet when one is in anger, one's mind is also clouded. That even knowing the fact that whatever words they said in a fit of anger could hurt the person or they may even become physical but still they will continue on because they are angry and anger blinds them. Until when they calm down then they realised what they had done.

Perhaps, when one is feeling angry, they should try to take a deep breath and count to 10 to calm themselves down before confronting the person or the issue on hand.

I am one step towards my goal. MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!

Wish I could capture every moment..

I'm so tired now and feeling hungry too, which is weird. My appetite seemed to be pretty good today although my stomach is acting up again. Sigh. It is like a love hate relationship between my stomach and my body or mind or whatever.

Tired as I am now but I still want to post today's event because I am very touched that my part time staffs planned this special day to celebrate my birthday with me! I guess sometimes I really 身在福中不知福 (to live in plenty without appreciating it; not to know when one is well off) because sometimes I wonder why some people can be so close to their friends or have friends who love them and dote on them and I don't. Never did I realise that I am one of them too! I have many close friends who love me and dotes on me, meet up when I need some company, angry when I have well, inhale too much, talk to me when I'm bored, know when I'm feeling happy or down. I'm really lucky that we are still keeping in contact and I feared that we will drift apart are out of nothing.

They had planned to spend the WHOLE day with me, however with the haze, they had changed the plan and shifted it to a half day event. So I met up with my 2 boys in town first and as I was feeling the urge to sing K.. we went ahead. Even mister 'Changed Man' had planned on where to have dinner at. :)

 

I cannot remember the name of this restaurant however it cost just $1.50 a plate. So, the moment we sat down, we began to take the above plates. Not sure whether was it a blessing for we were seated at the start of the belt so we could have the freshest food or was it bad because we took so many plates that most of the people seated opposite or beside have nothing left for them. They kept looking over at our table. Was it because we were very noisy or because we kept taking the sashimi?

 

The silly girl dropped her sashimi into her soy sauce and she still ate it! Wish I could capture her expression but that will be very mean of me right? She is just too cute!

 

Somehow we finished this bottle of soy sauce...... Where did it all go?

 

We had barely sat down for 20 minutes and this is what we had covered! By then we were already generating a lot of attention from our neighbours.

 

And MORE in another 10 minutes.

A: Hi, can I have this xxx?

Waiter: How many do you want?

A: 10

W: !! *He really had that stunned look on his face and it took him a moment to register what A had said before acknowledging the order.*

 

By then we had hit 63 plate in another 10 minutes. Boys are still hungry while Mermaid and I are slowing down, XL had totally given up because she is a very small eater.

 

Not all are contributed by me. By then, people were already looking over at our table and the waiter who took our 10 plates order was no longer surprised when we asked for 10 more plates of certain dishes.

At the end, our plates count was 91 - just 6 of us eating. It was too late for us to order 9 plates of dessert because they had already closed their last order. The couple beside our table was trying to count the number of plates we had and we just told them the figure. The waitress nearly missed out on the two single plates because she couldn't see until we reminded her. We are so honest!

 

We ate too much that we did not have space for cake anymore. So I just brought it home uncut.

XL was so cute to apologise for it.. haha. I am already touched that they remembered and planned for my birthday celebration, what more can I ask for?

I really wished that I could just capture every funny moments with my camera so that I can look at it but it was impossible because the funny moments came suddenly and it will not be funny for me to ask them to do it again so that I could take a picture. So I just kept all of them in my mind where it will be archive forever.

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Decided to pack my room into the plastic boxes I'd bought from ikea today. I think my girls will go crazy over my books when they see it.

Finished packing the first level, moved on to the next. I have this weird hobby of collecting notebooks. I just love them very much and I can't bear to use them although I know it is kind of silly to have notebooks but not using them. I.just.can't.bear.to.use. CAN'T!!!!

I have quite a number of notebooks. The nice ones I keep, plain ones I use. I had a NatGeo notebook which was designed like an Indiana type of book with a cloth bag to hold it in but the material just felt sticky all around with some oil so I had no choice but to throw it away. Very heart pain! And I have another NatGeo notebook which I had decided to use it for my travels. So far, it contains my planned trip to Japan with TP. It holds a lot of memories where I will remember them whenever I opened it up to look. I had planned the places, the timing, the days to spend, the hotels we are staying, some basic itinerary and such. I would love to go back to Japan with TP again for she is my GPS while I am the map of interest. We just compliment each other well. Maybe instead of she finding a boyfriend, we can just be together. Haha! Tell her daddy that she's a gay and we will just adopt a son to carry on her family's legacy.


Below are some books I have with cute/interesting designs.

Cartoon Network, Disney Channel and Nickelodeon.


 

I think the latest design in Blue is the best looking design so far.


 

Other random books from WB, Cinemax and MTV.

I have MS book and Halo cover. Just wish I have more of Halo notebooks with John-117 fronting all the hard covers. I was so tempted to steal the standing posters of him in those game shops and put them on the wall so that I could look at him before I sleep.


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Anyway I guess it was fate that I picked up a call today when I was having an internal debate to whether should I answer it because it was an unfamiliar number. Now I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed. I shall talk about it after more updates later.

Did I mention that I dream of getting my results?
I dreamt that I passed 2 modules and failed 2 modules. Seemed like my term for year 2 will start late. Time to plan my trip with mummy E! Gonna have to meet her soon for lunch/dinner!

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I had been thinking, why am I being so persistent, still holding on when such thing happened to me not once but twice. I guess it came after a chat with my buddy P, where after 5 years then he knows what he wants - to settle down and lead a life with her. He kept saying that he was glad that she did not give up on him during the early stages and he was really grateful for that otherwise he would regret.

Maybe because of this that made me persevere on and keep fighting to keeping it going. Never give up. There are things going on round and round on my mind. Weighing this and that....

I guess it is time I make up my mind.