for the first time i felt sooo tired (and i'm not drunk!) that i could just drop on my bed and sleep. went to help out at Sexpo which was quite exciting for me. its not my first time attending and working in an exhibition but its a different feeling for me everytime.

i get to understand how it was like for the girls who's trying to get sales outside, get to meet some people especially one who was our subscriber! very friendly man. oh, and sg national swimmer (or rather, ex-swimmer) leslie kwok was there too. he owned this company called 'Element Spa'.

get to meet alot of new friends which was more like a hi-bye kinda part except for one girl maybe.. i'll ask for her no. i need to make more F-E-M-A-L-E friends!!!! and... met up w/ vivi!!! he bought me a cute pinkish~orangey bag and a scented candle in jelly form.. heheh ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!

chris called a few days back. missed him alas.. i havent had the time to stop and chat with him as much as i want to. this month was a busy busy one for me. i think i am starting to like this job, very happening and always trying to think up of some events. though sometimes i hate the PR part where i have to be friendly to guys with ulterior motive.

weird.. some guy juz msg me saying that we'd met at some place which i dont recall going at all. saying we'd met, exchange nos and drank together. said i was alittle tipsy then.. doh. did anything happen? and if it happened some time back, why now then he msg? (oh coz he just saw my name/no while flipping through his contact cards -.-)i dont remember. think i should drink less. do more things when i was tipsy. could remember that night was qbar, practically chatted up with anyone, even the young waiter (ok, mayb he's just slightly younger or older thanme), the bouncer/sercurity and the ladies in the washroom. good thing is.. i dont gel with the older batch of men. neither are they interested in me. perhaps.. i can continue not being too smart and act stupid for once.

weird #2: its not exactly weird but.. i was quite touched when some strangers who either never meet you before or met once only can be so concern when you are sick. mayb they have hidden motives but heck. when you are sick, you wanna be pampered and b treated like a princess. hehehe. ok, mayb not like a princess but at least they showed some concern. :)

the above was drafted out while i was in the office typing halfway before i lost the mood to do so.

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recently, too many old memories surfaced. sweet ones of course especially during my poly year 1? my night safari girl. began listing things that attracted me to people and decided to shelve it aside as too many people's name surfaced (who unfortunately either wasnt interested in me or the other way round). too high of an expectations?

was i being too easy as in easy to woo? came at the wrong time and the wrong place? just as they were nursing their broken heart, i happened to pop at the wrong time and they decided to 'invest' in me? no thanks.. that'd prolly make me feeling very insecure.

received a txt from a friend which was meant for his friend and apparently, it was sent wrongly to me. (which reminded me of what most people said when things like that happened. it happened to john's friend too. which was, because the sender was too used to txting that person that they'll accidentally send over to them OR because they were thinking of that person)

i guess this phrase was rather true.. 'curiousity kills the cat'. something like that. can't really remember as its frikking 4am now and i have 4hrs of sleep before my alarm ring. mayb less than 4hrs. but i just need to get this off my chest as i know that he will be reading this. i hope he meant what he says..

who says that a person who had past few relationships are the most 'advanced'? every rs are different. each time w/ a new partner, u'll fnd yourself a lost again because the person has a different character, habits, needs, wants, etc. no matter how confident you are, thinking that you'll be able to handle a new rs, it'll still not be the same.

ugh, fuk! too many things running through my mind. cant sleep in peace. grrrRRR! shall leave smses for tmr.

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