well, kinda hit the lowest peak of my emotions last night, after seeing clift off..

how should i put it? it feels as though, my life had changed. for the worse. i cant play online as much as i used to, i cant meet up with my friends as much as i want to, and i seemed to stop making friends, stop socialising. period. yes, i felt like i have no life suddenly. as much as i was awared of the things that i'll have to sacrifice - long working hours, working over the weekends, but i guess i didnt expect it to be that horrible. even if im working 8.5hrs a day, but by the time i fin work, my friends are already snoozing away.

yes, i do admit that the pay is good. that's why there are some who actually stayed on because of the pull of it. you cant get that much outside especially if you are expected to go through the same thing all over again and your starting pay will definitely be really low. i wonder, whether will i want to stay here for the rest of my life? will i want to invest in something else, that'll reap rewards at the end of the day? though responsibilities will be bigger of course.

sometimes i wish i could live the life of a 'tai tai'. play games at my own pace, go overseas as and when i wish, do everything without having to work at all! but, having said that, you must be or have something that'll give you that sort of life right? cant really put it through words, you'll get what i mean eventually. not everyone can be tai tai you know?

just checked my payslip today and i can tell you, that its my first time seeing such BIG numbers.. its so big that i can say im earning what he used to earn.

something which jessicat said made my mind click. it made me think, alittle of the future..

i think, i need to open up more. i want to try.. something. but everytime i try to do so, i'll end up failing miserably.. i'd want to try and see and listen on how people communicate and not sounding so fake. which he does sometimes.

oh well, get to see her and unknowingly, she made the rest of the day pass by very fast. and bonus was, i get to chat up with her for at least... 10mins? :)

so many places i want to visit, so little time.

busy busy busy, gotta get prepared for kc's wedding this sat! :)
oh, i need to give my eyebrows a trim....

and lastly... CONGRAZ to cat n doris :)
no worries, i bear no grudge about your D-Day.. but.. show me some of your pics taken on that day can? :)