Treasuring family time.

I felt that I was lucky to be able to experience living with family, staying on my own in an empty apartment as well as in a rented room. It was a totally different feeling comparing all three. Although slight advantages are the landlord is either my friend or my supervisor. So I don't really experience the feeling of staying with a complete stranger in a house.

I will be moving back to my new house this Saturday. It made me starting to feel.. A bit reluctant. As part of me likes this freedom and part of me misses being together with my family.

Staying away and seeing my mom, my sis and nephews made me appreciate the time with them. Letting us catch up, wanting to meet each other, arranging outings. I quite like that.

There's some distance but there's some longingness as well.

Edited:

01/05/14

Funny, I was watching 2 Broke Girls, episode 22. Titled "And the New Lease on Life"

Although it was just a tv show but it really reflects well on life. Like my current life.

Caroline and Max, although had their ups and downs, even to fighting over stuffs, are not ready to give up living apart from each other. It is the being together that matters. No.. It's not a lesbian show by the way.

And it got me thinking, if you have fights with someone, perhaps at least once a month or even once every two weeks, does it make you want to leave that person to avoid future fights or would you rather have the fight and live with the person because you want to?

As in, sure there are fights but there are happy times as well. You can see the person (it can be really close buddies, partners, family) everyday even if you'll fight with them.

Not sure whether am I making any sense here.... It's just hard trying to bring through what I want to say in words.

I mean, sure there are fights but I'd still live with the person because I know I'm not ready to live without him. The companionship, being able to see the person daily, hugs, cuddles, watching shows, have dinners together are more than enough to allow me to overlook the fight part.

Sure I can adapt pretty fast and move on but do I want to move on without him? Am I ready to move on?

I guess these are questions I will ask myself.