wonder, whether was it he who brought it upon himself to have such a fate or was it his children who are abandoning him. was it his fault that he has to live a life alone. is he blaming his children for causing him to be in such a predictment yet unknowingly, it was his actions that caused him to be in this state? is he still looking for some sense hope?

if you look at him with compassion, you'll find him pitiful. a lonely man whose family left him.

if you look at him with one's conscience, you'll find that he deserve for all that is going to happen to him and he shouldn't be pitied.

anyway, an overseas call from HK with that particular strong MANLY voice just made my evening brighter. :)

*happy? i use MAN instead of BOY leh. ;P

wah lau!! how nice i decided to check my other account because of the ebay thingy and saw an email from starhub asking me to go down for the 2nd interview dated on the 16th!! HOW CLOSE MAN! because she asked me to go down on the 21st March at 5pm! heng not early or something or i could have missed it entirely. but funny thing was she said she cant get me through my mobile nor home. cant be ley.. i never receive any calls from her. hmmm.

anyway am gonna be thick skin and just go down for the interview at 5pm today. but.. i'm not prepared - never bring my certs along. hopefully everything will go well.

heeee v(^.^)v

watched 'The History Boys' with vi last night as crystal wasnt free to meet me to go to that QUACK's office. ended up he's not in too. ugh. this friday must make another trip.grrRRR!

just had a chat with kc and he sort of summaries the whole thing with 1 word - Bureaucracy.

for its definition, click here.

should they want to try to threaten me (as usual) with the usual threats, i'll fight it with MINE! wots the point of threatening people when the results you'll get is negative or if you'll only make things worse?

me? im making things worse? i just want to do what i want.

wah.... in a way am kinda touched when i realised that there's some low profile friends who although do not have much action in your life can actually understand you the best. just went msn and through just mere words, she can feel that im in a bad mood.. :P
*huGs*
no wonder she's called master lil... haha.

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anyway, these are just my own opinions.

am in a very bad mood. more like frustrated. feel like punching sth to release all the frustration within.

why people always want to feel so comfortable with life that sometimes they cant accept the changes? the world is constantly changing, why people cant adapt to it and change with it? why must some people b ------- when the world is going /\/\/\/\/\/?

then whn sth major happened, they cant adapt to it and kept thinking it must be somebody who changed that person. but have they ever thought that it could be some other factor?

they do not understand the real me, what i want. because all sgns dont speak out their mind, their thoughts. the thoughts i used to have since sec sch surfaced. the thoughts that i used to tell zhiwei. why am i born here? since then, i have always wanted to do this and that and try this and that but they disappear slowly with the period.

now that i have the 'push', i wanted to really do what i want to do and they just cant seem to accept the fact that its what I want to do. why do people like to always push blame to others available? why cant they just accept the big changes in life?

just because i kept quiet for a really long time doesnt mean i can keep doing so. its like feeding water to a bottle, sooner or later it'll be overflow or burst if covered.

it doesnt matter if i'll regret it later if i do this and that. i just wanna try. even if it hurts terribly, at least i know that feeling. i dont wanna regret not trying. i wanna do the things i wan. i want F-R-E-E-D-O-M!

over caring is harmful, not caring is i-dont-care-if-u-die. caring alil here and there is alright. care ok, but dont because i go out till late u have to have a say in it. 25yrs old so what? people 18years old already tried most of the things i have NOT try before. they are already doing something. 25yrs old is SHIT if its empty.

tot i'll just bump in here to type something short.

haiz, have had been missing clift since last night. although he'll be away for 5days and we wun be meeting till sunday when he returns and i cant see him off tomorrow and he'll be going to bangkok to find girl..... :(((((((((((

anyway most prolly wun be moving in till april i hope since im bloody broke, it'll be good if that Dr QUACK guy can actually give me my salary which is 3months overdued le! hope his magazines will close down since everyone's complaining that its a very boring one while others who subscribe to it to support their friends who USED to work there and the 1% who are xxx deprived idiots who cant get any females in life. pui. oh and lastly, that fella to burn in hell. yes, KARMA for him please.

ys's in japan enjoying his honeymoon, vi got a job that he enjoyed, me, praying for a job that i'd applied to be given to me. ASAP!

lastly, wish i could just fast forward the days to the weekends because i just lost the 'looking forward' to work part. instead, i just dragged myself to toa payoh, couting time and wondering when will friday come soon followed by saturday while i push sunday away.

life sux but there's always something in life that makes me find it wonderful. for instance.. my friends and my lover. not forgetting food.