well, yep. thoughts raided my brains again.

was chatting with rx via msn on sat night and he was asking me what kinda guy i'm attracted to. i managed to list out some (oh.. seems like everyone know i play games only. >.> mayb i should start showing the other side of me that no one or little people knows? nah, keep it that way better. more mysterious. hehe) and back to the story.

would like to add one to my list. HE should at least be able to play an instrument. anything, like violin, piano, guitar, drum, anything as long as its related to music. i dont know why but it just attracts me so.

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anyone knows how to comfort a person when he/she's feeling down, heartbroken, etc?

i dont know how to but i can only lend my ears (still, it depends on my mood and how close we are). some people seems to have the potential of giving advises thou.

ever been in a situation wher your friend's crying her/his heart out to you and you felt so helpless coz u cant help them? cant give must comfort only to stay silent? and dont know whether are you helping much and giving the comfort they are seeking from you?

me, always. felt like.. im too lousy to help, to comfort, to advise. (the only ideas i can give are excuse to evade your parents, other half, etc. er and ya, to disturb someone, court someone, etc)

and you cant tell the person in d middle of their mourning this "ey sorry im not good with comforting words" right?

oh and the part where you found a partner and sort of neglected your friends and wondered whether do they hate you for that and ignore you?

i dont know about some but i guess, those who really care about you will only talk/complain (yep.. like me) but in times when you really need them, they'll jump.. no, FLY over without any hesitation.

was chatting with ah soon on sat and yea, he really 'touched' my feelings out. hahah. ok, he pointed out my thoughts and feelings. i did feel jealous and disappointed at times when friends (esp my very close friends) who put their partner over me. and come to find me only when they need me or when their other half is not free to meet them. abit like spare tyre.

but well, did feel all that but i guess, its because i was too used to having them all to myself? now i need to share them with someone who holds a more important role than me. i'll have to get use to it. yea, still complain and grumble but hahah, i guess thats that. empty complains only but in reality, i dont really care as long as u still remember me will do bah.

and oh yea, the thought of ah soon being snatch by his poo pooH also frightens me lah but what to do? life still have to go on and he need to settle down too. hahah. just hope they wouldnt forget me will do. or i'll die as a lonely CHIOBU ah mah. (aka beautiful old woman) hehe. *ouch* yea.. thick skin i know. so u hit me also no use. wouldnt feel a thing. hahahAHAH!~

additional note (juz remember): bian bian nan was askg me, if given 2 guys to choose from, 1 is good looking but poor, the other is juz the opposite, ugly but rich, which will i choose? oh, both have good personality, to think of it, sounds like the first is you leh.. heheh.. JUST KIDDING!!!! you are more like a mei nan zhi (pretty boy). hahah. aunties love most.

i was unable to give an answer, till now also cant choose because poor is alright, but what if he's very ambitious because of that? i dont know but i dont think i can be the woman behind every successful man. as for the rich one, ever read the newspapers? those rich man very playboy and have alot of mistress. so.. no thanks. i dont wanna feel insecure in a relationship.

so... i think... staying single with plenty of lapdancers and toyboys will do. muawhhahawhahahha...

oh.. chee chung said that i sound lik a man eater? -.-" (was it him or another friend?)

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btw, anyone knows where can i get an epilator?

oh oh! and those who shave their underarms, please dont!!! either do IPL or wax it because i read it in a magazine that the skin at our armpits are the thinnest, so u are actually thinning that layer by shaving it. notice those skin flakes that appear in your blade (is there? dont remember le), they are your skin. ( i think.. )

if IPL is too ex, then try waxing it. but recently i found out this new toy called the E P I L A T O R where you can get it as cheap as 50bucks. it like an electric shaver but i think it doesnt shave. they remove the hair by its roots and somehow it made the regrowth longer. ^.^

but long term wise, i think IPL is better as i heard that your hair will take 3~5months to grow and it wouldnt grow thicker as shaving do. cost more but more effective. wax = not 100% remove i guess if you are doing DIY otherwise under those professionals, it should be better.