June's happening

Yes, I realized that it had been quite sometime since I last wrote and post some updates here. There are so many things that I want to write but what's stopping me is not knowing when that person will read my blog again. I mean she's like a thorn in the flesh, but nothing like a rose. She's like a ghost from the past but will never stop haunting you. She's like a spring, sometimes pushing sometimes pulling.

I want to share my cute nephews photos, their developments but I guess I will do that later.

Anyway my birthday had passed and just two days before my birthday, I met up with a girl friend who is always too busy for me but I can't blame here because she's busy working.

We had a great meal at 8 Stanley Street. Super love the fries because it was fried to golden and is crispy! Yums! Pity I did not take any photos this once because I was too busy catching up with her and enjoying our time together. Until the lights just went off and I thought they are closing for noon and will open again for dinner crowd or maybe they are just conserving electricity.

Suddenly someone was singing a birthday sing and I thought they were singing it for my girlfriend (she knows the people there)... And all of them turned to me. I was so surprised and did not expect it to happen. I was really touched. She was, I think the first to give me such an unexpected surprise. Never fail, on both my birthdays. She made me felt special. :) 

Tsk, to think none of my boyfriends had ever do that for me. Lol. Oh, except for one but I always foiled his attempts. Hah!

Anyway wrong picture posted here but look at the strawberry flower! Cool ya?

Anyway, I went to find a friend to do my nails. First time doing gel nails and it was fascinating to see her doing it. She's such a perfectionist and I wish I had look her up earlier. Picked this color and my friends were saying that it's too sweet and they ain't used to seeing such color on my nails or even to see me doing manicure! I'm already so excited to be doing my next design. :)

Wish I could just change it every week but I got to let my nails rest and breathe some air. Nice mah????

The one and only time when it rained the whole day heavily last month or two months back.see the clouds were covering the 'boat'? That was like, really cooling and that 'shiok' feeling. And now, we are relying on air con everyday. The heat is becoming unbearable and it hasn't rained for weeks!

The last it rained was sometime mid June? It happened in the middle of the night when the wind was so strong that it was beating against my windows and curtains were moving little. I could hear the wind howling, the sound of the rain, it was quite scary and it kept me up for awhile.

Many were asking whether have I moved to my new house yet. The answer is no. I am still trying to unpack my room to the extend that I had became a little too lazy and stopped packing. Can I just blame it on my baby nephew, who is just too adorable to play with? I had my display cabinet fixed up and began to unpack the smaller figurines.... And I was glad that I have not unpack the bigger boxes yet because I realized that I don't have much space for them. I think I have to custom-make a glass box for them and display them separately on the wall shelf.

My two prized warriors. If only I can make something like the Sephiroth in Square Enix, Tokyo. If you've been there, you'll know what I meant. I don't need a bed, I can just lie there. I was so tempted to just stay there looking at him but I did not because I felt shy and don't want to embarrass myself by doing something silly.

More stuffs. Spartans are still in the reach box. I wonder whether will there be a legendary edition for Halo: Guardians for XBOX ONE. I will most likely buy it, I think the guardians outfit is quite cool. That got me really curious, on who are they? Where do they come from? How will it continue? How about Cortana? Will Doctor Halsey program another Cortana? I'm not sure what to expect from 343 for Halo this time. Hope I won't be disappointed as I was with Halo 4. Maybe because it didn't turn out the way I want, maybe because they want to try something different, I don't know. Perhaps, because when I read the Halo novels, the Master Chief that I'd envisioned was different. He's strong, he's cool and he's emotionless. Like they were trained to be a robot so that they will be more efficient in battles.

I'm really looking forward to the Halo television series and hope it will really blow me away like the game. Not sure whether will it be available in Singapore.. :(

Treasuring family time.

I felt that I was lucky to be able to experience living with family, staying on my own in an empty apartment as well as in a rented room. It was a totally different feeling comparing all three. Although slight advantages are the landlord is either my friend or my supervisor. So I don't really experience the feeling of staying with a complete stranger in a house.

I will be moving back to my new house this Saturday. It made me starting to feel.. A bit reluctant. As part of me likes this freedom and part of me misses being together with my family.

Staying away and seeing my mom, my sis and nephews made me appreciate the time with them. Letting us catch up, wanting to meet each other, arranging outings. I quite like that.

There's some distance but there's some longingness as well.

Edited:

01/05/14

Funny, I was watching 2 Broke Girls, episode 22. Titled "And the New Lease on Life"

Although it was just a tv show but it really reflects well on life. Like my current life.

Caroline and Max, although had their ups and downs, even to fighting over stuffs, are not ready to give up living apart from each other. It is the being together that matters. No.. It's not a lesbian show by the way.

And it got me thinking, if you have fights with someone, perhaps at least once a month or even once every two weeks, does it make you want to leave that person to avoid future fights or would you rather have the fight and live with the person because you want to?

As in, sure there are fights but there are happy times as well. You can see the person (it can be really close buddies, partners, family) everyday even if you'll fight with them.

Not sure whether am I making any sense here.... It's just hard trying to bring through what I want to say in words.

I mean, sure there are fights but I'd still live with the person because I know I'm not ready to live without him. The companionship, being able to see the person daily, hugs, cuddles, watching shows, have dinners together are more than enough to allow me to overlook the fight part.

Sure I can adapt pretty fast and move on but do I want to move on without him? Am I ready to move on?

I guess these are questions I will ask myself.

龙和狗真的不合吗？

I have always heard of this saying - for Chinese zodiac, that those born in the year of Dog and Dragon will not get along. It can be siblings, relationship, etc.. I first heard that when I just dated a guy who is a Dragon. And I do not believe that because I believe it is the person's personality that decides whether the two people will get along.

We dated for 5 years and we broke up the end.

Then later, I dated another guy who is another dragon.

Somehow after 1 year plus, I am starting to believe in that saying. Is it true?

And a lot of it was about our pride getting in the way. That we are proud people. And we will not be in harmony. Will not be in step with each other.

Or is it because of things that had happened seemed to sway my opinions over to the other side?

I always believe that we can change our fate that we will not turn out to be like what they had said. That our relationship will not last because of our zodiac sign. That we will not get along. And they began to show the pairings of animals that are actually a match for each other.

And I began to wonder, is that why it happened? Because of our signs, that are wrongly matched? That we cannot be together for long?

Why is it that it is beginning to feel like a one way street?

Is it because we let our pride gets in the way that we don't communicate? Don't talk openly of our feelings towards each other?

Is there any good examples of couple with mismatch signs who are still together and going strong?

Realization.

I have always been thinking about what I want in a relationship. From my man. And I didn't realise it until now that what I want are simple.

I just want a man whom I will be proud to show off to my friends. And my man to feel the same way too. Introduce his cool girlfriend who plays video games.

(That sounds familiar.)

A man who is sensitive towards my feelings and I will do the same to.

I want a man who can feel at ease with my friends and participate in our conversations without trouble. And should my man brings me out with him to meet his friends, he will try to assure me he is still with me - if he understands me well enough, he knows why.

I want my man never to tell lies. Whom I can give my complete trust to. I know I can give him the trust he wants.

Our relationship to be so transparent that we have problem holding each other's phone or even using each other's phone. Because there IS no secrets between us.. Except for planning surprises.

I want us to be proud of each other that we will be spamming our photos on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, etc. sharing our happiness with friends.

I want us to try everything together. Be it trying out new cafe/restaurant/pubs.. To name a few no matter what the distance is. To try out new things or even play sports together. To explore places together. To travel together.

Although I don't have the habit of wearing a ring. But if my man really wants to let people know we belongs to each other. He will want us wearing a couple ring. (Maybe?) or splash our photo on all his profiles to tell people.

To be ready to move on (not marriage) and stay in a committed relationship with me.

One who plans and not know nothing. For I know I will plan too.

I guess a lot of people don't know that.. Lying is the worse thing in a relationship. One lie (unless it is a white lie just to plan something but not lying just to meet people) can really cause a crack.

You can repair a wound but you can never remove the scars.

But is there such a person? Someone who does not cheat and lie. Do such a person exist?

You can't judge a book by its cover

First off, thanks J for your comment. :)

It was really good seeing your comment. Hope you're doing well over your side!

Been wanting to post some photos but I'd decided to wait till I buy my own MacBook.. Which is when I'd move back to my house. Renovation is almost done (finally!) and I guess the part that I'm dreading most is the cleaning and unpacking part. Luckily I'd managed to get a few close friends to help me out!

Anyway a close friend of mine just told me a something that made me wonder..

Why is it so easy to cheat and so hard to keep a relationship floating?

If one person felt that they can't contribute anymore.. Why not just ask to end things amicably before moving on?

It felt like.. A person who felt complacent enough to move forward while still pulling onto the rope. So they still can return back should things go bad?

The person whom I see was the least likely to do it did it.. And the person whom everyone saw as one who will most likely do it.. Did not.

Guess that's where we start judging people. That also made it easy for those with the 'clean' face to do whatever they want because the people surrounding them will not have a clue nor believe they are the one who is being unfaithful.

Why do people do it in the first place?

Especially so for those who are married and worse, have kids!

This whole thing just made people lose faith in relationship. That should they be in a relationship again, they'll tread lightly and most prolly will not take it seriously. Which may end up hurting the other half.

If a person who wants to be in a relationship, should think about what they want first.

However, guess for some they will only know it after they have their fair share of fun.

Or maybe love just cannot be denied. Once you are attracted to that person, you just want to be with them. But as easy as it comes, the feeling will go away as well. And that's where the whole cycle starts.

Maybe that's why some of the people around me are single with no intention of getting attached. They feel that a relationship is too troublesome. They like their freedom and being single. Of course they don't fool around.

Sigh.. What happened to my friend.. Kind of affected me. Coz he's my good friend and he has that face that people will associate with bad guys. Yet, he's not that type of person.

It kind of sucks.