had a super strange dream today.. it was soooo real! and i could almost feel it. i hope it isnt gonna happen anytime coz it'll means.. *shook head furiously*

that reminded me of a dream i had few nights back. seemed kinda funny that i had actually dreamt of that before but this time, it was too tragic that i actually woke up with crying.

dunno why, i find it harder to smile now. instead, i seemed to be always trying to hold back a bunch of leaking water. damn. mayb stop meeting people for the time being after sunday. must look happy. just for his sake. :)