Well, I wanted to share all my ups and downs here but I realised some things are better left unsaid.
Like my post title, it is indeed. Good and bad in some way that I wish things are different so that I could perhaps change how it is going to turn out. So what I can do for now is to move on.
Anyway I'll be removing all 4 wisdom teeth at the same time, of which 2 requires surgery. I'd requested to undergo local anaesthesia and hope the aftermath won't be too painful. Thankfully B took leave and will be accompanying me to the NDC and will be sending me home. Basically he will be with me for that day. A lot of my friends said I shouldn't do that but I just do not wish to go through the pain again. I can't remember how it felt like when I removed two of my upper teeth for braces.
I'd a talk with a friend recently about trusting of partners as his case is more serious as compared to mine. I asked him whether is he able to build his trust on his gf and his reply was Yes he did and it was better than before. I wondered how did he do it and he said it takes a lot of time and don't think too much (J, if you're reading this). Somehow I thought of that and I felt calmer now and tried not to think too much whenever he's on the phone or whoever is messaging him. At times I still worry about him not telling if one of his ex-girlfriends message him but I guess I need to trust him to share when that happen.
Sometimes I'd wonder whether did he do/say this/that to his ex-girlfriends and all but I guess there's no point asking - not because he won't tell me but it pointless to know becuase what he used to do in the past are different from the present. :)
He's sweet and takes good care of me and I love him. :)
So yah, my trust is slowly building itself around him.
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