What do you want in a relationship?

Somehow I realised that my blog has been full of relationship related posts and there weren't many happy posts or happening posts. I guess it all became like that after I realised that someone undesirable was reading my blog after that incident happened... in May. After which, I don't really like her looking at photos taken with my friends and all. I do wish I could write a post about her, attached with a photo just to let everyone know what she did. You did not see me posting, so it is not here.Yet. Perhaps I'll go through a higher profile post so that it gets wider coverage.

All that had happened, it is strange and difficult to comprehend why would someone finds pleasure in doing such things, knowing that it is all words only but still suck it all up and pretend that it is all happening? It is easy to put a test to see how much that someone means to that person.

I want to move on. And I guess it is about time for me to do something by the end of this year. I wish to start something new for 2014 as 2013 is bad enough. I hope I will be able to stand strong and stay firm by then. I'd forgiven and forget too many times but it just keeps happening again and again which makes it hard for me to forgive and forget anymore. The last time is the last straw but I do not wish to stay and see it happening again. God knows what I will do.

I also knows that there are people close to me, reading my posts as they are voices from my thoughts which I never really share with them. I am glad that they reads and do not confront me about it but still supporting me silently.

So, as my post reads "What do you want in a relationship?"

I once told someone what I want in a relationship but I guess it all but fell on deaf ears as that person will read only. Selective reading on top of that. So when I was talking about this, that person asked what do I want in a relationship then, I do not really want to tell as I know it will just be washed away.

I want to be able to have TRUST in a relationship. That means no lying in a relationship. No keeping things. Complete trust and faith.

I want to have a relationship where we can talk about anything under the sun. It can be small things like 'Hey, I just found this app/game." or it can be "my friends are planning a birthday event for a friend / Chinese New Year / Christmas event, we are thinking of doing this, this and that.". It can be anything that is happening right now. I guess it will lead to the next one.

I want both to be involve in each others lives and activities. When we are thinking of doing certain things, we will think of the other immediately.

I want to have a relationship where we can share about just anything which is similar to the part where I said we can talk about anything under the sun but this time is, we can share our personal thoughts and feelings with each other. Our plans.

I want to have a relationship where I can see us moving on to somewhere. It does not necessary have to lead to marriage but it can lead to a relationship where I know it will  be the last one, a relationship which is rock solid, which will lasts.

Just more disappointments than happy memories. Why did it all start? Why did I not protest and go with what was planned initially? Why did I not stop myself then? Perhaps it will not happen at all. Then perhaps I will be feeling quite the opposite of what I am feeling right now.

Why?

How do you close a healing wound that keeps opening up?

How do you give trust to someone who wants you to give them complete trust and yet, feeds you with lies all the time?

Why someone said things out of convenience just so to put a closure to something quickly without resolving it?

How can a person not shed a tear after having faced with so many blows and still stands, still giving the same amount and not falter a bit? Is that person stupid? Or just too nice? Or just too naive to think that someone will change for the person?

Being too optimistic is not a good thing. Perhaps that naive person ought to start looking out for themselves and give less.

I think the person should stand firm and treat own self good instead of the other way round.

Why someone can lie so much out of convenience?

Why can't someone take others feelings into consideration for once?

Why is there such a selfish someone?

It all boils down to fate.

I had just attended a wedding, a couple whom I am close with.

How they met, how their friendship blossomed into a relationship, how they managed through it for 4 years, I still believe that it was fate that brought them together.

Fate plays a part in bringing two person together and the rest will be up to the couple on how do they want to continue on from there.

It was sweet and they are really a match for each other. As much as there are ups and downs, they still make it through all these years.

Being involve in each other's lives, respecting one another, being happy, being one another's pillar of strength, saving all the sweet nothings for no one but between the two of them and be each other's travel partner.

Capturing all the moments, even small moments be it when eating, walking, shopping or even at home with camera.

Is it important to put photos taken together as your wallpaper on your phone, computer or as your display picture for your facebook, whatsapp, twitter, etc?

How about if you put it but it doesn't mean anything to you? Or you place it when it means something to you? Such as a trophy photo to show others that you are proud of being with that someone else? To tell the other genders that you are happy in a relationship and do not need other attention from them? To see the photo when you misses them, when you are feeling down and need a smile on your face by looking at the photo or when you are feeling angry at something and needed something to keep you calm?

A song for all couples out there. If you are ever thinking that things are not working out for you, perhaps you should take some time to think about why are you together with your partner in the first place.

For friends, why or what brought you two together out of the many others and to share that special moment, that special friendship.

For family, why do you have such siblings that you can share your happiness, sadness and life with.