thank you darling for making me feel like a princess yesterday. felt sooo pampered by u. :P

thank you! ^^

DID YOU GUYS WATCH THE FOOTBALL MATCH: SINGAPORE V MALAYSIA?!?!?!?
SG WON! thou its penalty but... it still counts and woOHOO WE WON!!!! YAYYYYYYY! thou i wasnt at the place itself and thoroughly regretted it for not securing a seat and getting some kakis to go together and cheer but hey, at least i turned on the TV and catch it and finished it throughout d whole game!

was superly superly fixing my eyes onto the game and praying and hoping that singapore will win. v close but phew~~~~~~~

how fun it'd be if i was there, wearing red and getting kakis to cheer together. aiyo, seeing the response at the stadium was overwhelming man!

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updates for ytd:

was typing last night halfway till pc suddenly blackout.. graphics card got problem or sth. shit.. hope its not virus attack on it or something man. v pek chek n ys alrdy dying, so reboot, skipped updating and went over to PowerLevel (PL) him first.

i managed to do this which i have not done so for a quite some time. (v lengthy n longwinded process)

1. Rmv cdrw, insert dvdrw.
2. on pc, insert ffxi's ToAU... nothing happened. My computer also din display that drive. something wrong? then.. i remembered i'd forgotten to check something.
3. off pc, rmv dvd... ya. slot was in MA... switch to other one. re-insert n re-boot.
4. yay.. finally run. installed and total installation, updates took about an hour?
5. off pc, rmv dvd n reinsert cd. haa. decided to keep dvd for new pc. :P
6. have a feeling alot of ppl will say this: FINALLY install the expansion. bought it last yr.. d moment it was out till now. haven touch it. haaaah.

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damn... boss divert all calls.. so many calls in d morning till now. sigh. did alil of shopping today. yay! got new clothes to wear n i like em all!

imagine me typin all these in baby's place n he's not around. haaa and watching d football match w/ his dad. n.. me throwing my hands up in d air and shouted YAY when sg's goalkeeper - Lionel Lewis (if i din get his name wrong) caught the ball. HAHAHAHAHAHH! ok, going wow abit b4 ys is home to pt w/ me.

24th January 2007

Super duper dulan in d morning. wore shirt, but can see bra through the opening between d buttons. tried to use safety pin to pin it down, bloody difficult. made me v pek chek that i cant b bother to use pin n juz went off to work. shirt made me 70% dulan liao, next is my hair. did some coloring while i had my haircut at new salon. tot i'd try it out ended up, its much worse. wah lau.. actually i wanted to trim it but dunno why that plan vanished and im left w/ a rather short haircut where when the wind blows, i cant frikking ty it up or something. and worse, i cant use clip to hold back fringe coz it'll look v ugly. haiz. please.. PLEASE remind me to keep it shoulder length whenever i mention about going for haircut.

next, did some highlights. told d lady that i wanted copper brown. she gimme red. WTF? i think she need to go for colorblind test. brown and red, BIG DIFF ok!!

need to spend a bomb again to RE-highlight. grrrRRRR~!

super dulan tht i actually txt clift to kp to him. juz nice, a frd called and he gotta listen to my ramblings. haiz.

25th January 2007 (thats today)

update later..

spent the whole day (sort of i guess) clearing out my desk AND drawers. normally i'll just clear the top only. found lots of old stuffs including.. my secondary year books and diaries.

took a peek at my diaries - year 2003 (?) if i didnt remember wrongly. sigh.. those were the times and reminded me of some silly things that i did. who doesnt? ;)

sorted out my jp notes and.. it came to as thick as 1.5"! gosh... didnt know my sensei actually gave us so much notes. haha.

saw tickets from Quidam and the Forbidden City. kept 1 as a remembrance.


no of bookmarks i have under my sign = 7
i think ALL of them were given to me by my friends. :)


where did the other half go to?
that was bought like.. when i was in sec 3/4 ?


pri sch library card. cute huh? :P


do these bring back memories?

saw some old pics that i wanna compile into albums so that i can invite friends over to go through the pics together over a cup of tea and laugh/make comments over the pics. :)

cant believe that i actually talked on the phone for more than an hour now. yea, 5hours was nothing when i was younger (sec sch time) but now.. haha.

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19 January 2007

i'd always passby this delifrance from the mrt station to my office. always, without fail, i'd stop by to take a look at wots there on the shelves and the craving will start to act up on me. c-h-o-c-o-l-a-t-e. (imagine gollum rubbing the ring while mumbling to himself "my precciousssSSS" which instead, i'd be licking my lips and staring at the chocolate w/ colourful lights at the background, wanting to devour d chocolate.)

went to run some errands for philip and on the way back to my office... i passed by delifrance. gave in to my temptation and ordered for 1 mini choclate eclaire initially. not d big one because i dun wanna make myself look messy. philip sure will laugh at me. >.<

ended up, it was too mini that i asked for one more. happily bought 2 upstairs and selfish-ly praying that philip wasnt in the room and he wasnt! yay! can have all to myself!! xD

saw one which i wanted to buy but it was in french and i dont know how to pronounce it.. at that moment.. clift popped in my mind. wishing that he was there so that he can help me pronounce it in french. sigh.. how romantic. :P
hey hey, most of the girls i'd checked w/ all agreed that the guy will earn cookie points if he speak french ok!!! they'll MELT ah! hur hur hur.

v useful hor? mayb next time bring him for more language classes so that if i ever come across some foreign word.. i'll pull him (d animated way) and point at the word and he'll automatically pronounce it for me. how nice. xD


nearly sprain my ankle while boarding the bus on the way to work this morning. there was a slight dent on the 1st step and i almost lost my balance. heng there was the handrail on the right and i quickly hold onto it. causing a loud bang when my right foot quickly touched the step for stability. bus driver just stared at me. -.-
somehow i managed a smile and walked to the end of the bus. after that, my left foot kept wanting to lose control. sigh.. 2.5" heels.. wot to do. price to pay for vanity. haha.

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20 January 2007

went to vivocity to meet san and sandy first.

at first, i wanted to shop for clothes but seeing that its almost five.. i suggested having dinner since we are catching a 6.30pm show. at first san was contemplating whether to eat that or somewhere else but she wanted to eat that at least once before she leave for sg, i asked her to eat there lor. nothing to lose anyway. its all food in d end and we'll get our tummy filled.

burgers were big. free flow of drinks but the onion rings aint as good as compared to BK's and i dont really quite like the taste of the burgers. ok.. mayb for one or mayb because its too big that i get sick of it later. we ordered 2 meals to share. haha. cant wait to shit out all by monday so that i can fit into my clothes again.

oh, watched 'The Illusionist' starring Edward Norton (thats d only name i remember coz he left d deepest impression on me when i watched American History X). good show w/ a twist in the story plot. seems lik thats wot most of the shows do nowadays (reminded me of Death Note 2).

saw alot of movie posters that i wanna watch!!!

sigh.. need to go shopping again real soon! think i can jio my kaki along when im going shop shop. i HATE shopping. luckily i have some shops in mind, dun have to waste too much time walking around. my patience is v limited when it comes to shopping. grrRRR!~

haha, thanks claire for this SG MTV.

today got my pocket money! hahah. not really lah, no thanks to that sick bastard who has been delaying my salary for MORE than a frikking month that my baby is worried i wun have enough $ to makan. thank you clift!

oh, another url, quite interesting. can go check it out.

Deal or No Deal.

and.. clift juz gave me his decision on some pending topic and i was totally .. shocked when i heard the result... it was totally unexpected and after that, i just cant wipe that silly grin off my face.

ahhhh, my 2007 is bringing me some excitement at last. big changes in life. looking forward to it and finally, i have some goals in life. isnt that wonderful?

15/01/07 THE MOST HORRIBLE BUS RIDE HOME

i cant imagine.. how some people love to hold onto the top handle in buses when they are so S H O R T ! hold up nevermind, but please be mindful of the air refresher that your forest covered armpit is emitting out! no smell ok, fine. but COMB your bushes for goodness sake! it's exposing itself while u were short and holding onto the dangling handles.

he was juz RIGHT IN FRONT of me with his horrible-complexion-who-thinks-she-so-chio girlfriend and she actually thought i felt awkward coz they were playing lovey-dovey in front of me. yea! i felt awkward because YOUR bf's armpit hair are POPPING out and he doesnt seemed to realise how disgusting it was! and how old were they? 20? 18? still slacking? studying? d gf looked lik she just had some fashion disaster - yellow knitted top which looked so cheap on her w/ some skirt i dont remember, big white bangles and a big ring on the right hand plus some big hairband on her little head, wearing a pair of wot, 70% opaque stocking w/ wots tht color called?, kinda lik blue/green pair of heels. omg... it looked so... oh, not forgetting her cheap gold pair of watch.

SO, imagine she wearing that w/ her poor complexion and thick makeup (im not trying to attack those w/ poor complexion here but she's juz so ugh! at least people know and are trying to make it better and she's doing the opposite!) in those cheap clothes trying to act all ang moh occasionally and it sounded so fake? luckily she gave up and spoke in poor mandarin though. (although my mandarin isnt that good but at least i speak properly ok) and wot? d bf juz reported to her saying he juz played a whole day of CS. WTF? very proud of that meh? i'd rather hear something like he just earn 10 grand after a whole day of sales man! or anything except that!

oh oh, our armpit-showing-boyfriend was dressed in a wot seemed like a piece of cheapskate top which i think only cheena people will wear in sg. omg..... the picture is still appearing in my mind man....

obviously the gf doesnt care about that coz she'd definitely noticed her bf's armpit hair was showing out through his sleeve and doesnt like, asked him to put down his hand or something because its showing through and his armpit is facing in front of a girl. sigh. how i wish at that moment in time, i could just curtly tell mr bf that his armpit hair was showing and it's very disgusting. can he kindly keep em inside his clothes and stop holding the top handle as he wasnt tall enough for that, unfortunately. OR i wish my darling was w/ me. hey, he's capable, thats y muz show him off sometimes. d guy will definitely felt lik he's a cockroach compared to my smart bf.hur hur hur. and the girl, mayb she can stop thinking that its cool to kiss her bf loudly in front of others. i mean, im alright w/ ppl kissing openly but not those who's doing it on purpose!

and i was sooooo worried that d bf will fall on me.. coz it would mean one thing - armpit hair on my face! nOOOOOOO! that would torment me for a whole frikking year and i dun wanna start my 2007 that way! no frikking way!

halfway throughout d journey, disgusting couple went upstairs to sit. thought finally peace was here right? WRONG! some group of stupid kids came and i dun wanna name things. kiddo was super smelly be it d clothes he was wearing or its juz his body odour. not one but TWO! frik! that night was the only time i cant wait to reach home.

felt so frikking dulan in d morning and night have to end lidat... damn!

morning was because.. its monday = first day of the week = muz wear formal = muz get used to wearing formal = made me pissed, super short circuit, fighting d urge to untuck my top (ever see me in tucked clothes b4? apart fr sec sch) and removing my heels in exchange for sandals (which.. sandals is a no-no for my boss). other hazardous effect when im in office wear includes: STM (short term memory), moody, cranky, opposite of energetic, no smile on my face (u can imagine d seriousness of it by now huh?), blah blah blah.

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16/01/07

damn torturing!
morning was alright.. overslept but luckily all is good. boss told me its OTOT. did my work anyway. starting to feel.. very uncomfortable. staying in a small office room the whole day, i cannot tahan. wearing office wear in that small room, backside cant stop twitching. that arsehole come sms me when im feeling v touchy acted as a catalyst. IE die die dun wanna open my hotmail, causing me not able to do my work as planned when im feeling superly cranky.. makes me a touch-bomb (where it worked lik d mine, explode when touched).

sms from clift, is like throwing some ice into my fiery pot. walked out run some errand, bought mac medium fries plus strawberry milkshake, cools down d rest.. ok, juz part of it. rest of them melt away w/ the rest of the night.

saw nicholas who was my sec frd! came into my room and i couldnt recognise him man. he looked so different from last time. haha. had dinner w/ him and caused him to be late for his show. paiseh man...

plus chatted w/ ys - d forever energiser battery crazy fella.

all in all, it was a good night.

now... juz thinking of food makes me hungry. ughhh.

anyway, will be emailing a frd's survey to u guys. pls help me complete it ok? thanks alot man~ i know u all treat me da best!

heeee, and.. my baby too. u d best-est! i know u v pamper me. :P
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wow! it'd been like 1 week since i last update... miss me bo? hgahah.

anyway was kinda busy for the past week coz i was taking on 2 jobs - remember? so for tues - wed i was busy till 930pm, by the time i reach home and everything, i was kinda tired liao. thurs went to meet ys n pat for dinner. hahaha, finally get to see that 'somebody' in uniform! ok lah, look not bad, quite handsome lah hor? get to see another fella too.

went to jurong west to makan - pat's recommendation since it was kinda late n raining, difficult to find place to makan. after that, went for dessert. i suspect ys has been craving for that man - ice cream. crazy right? raining, cold weather and there we were sitting in 24hrs swensens eating GIANT earthquake (oh and not forgetting ys' very happy face when he's back in swensens n proudly announced to us many times that he used to work there).

san returned on fri where i went over to the airport to find her. hehe, it was rewarding enough to see her surprise face and missed her smile and her man. had dinner at nearby coffeeshop w/ san n sandy. after that, send sandy home and went over to pick clift up. yep, san's driving.

sat was the only time i get to WAKE UP LATE! yea! ok lah, though u guys may envy me coz.. i start work at 12pm.. heee. get to slack the whole day away, which i was looking for.

im sure some will be very curious about my job nature right? overall, i spent most of the time 'sleeping'. boss sometimes came in as late as 4pm or will be in around 1 and went off at 2pm for meeting. and the cool thing was.. if i have to work later at night, we have dinner together and.. my boss treat me! hahah and not forgetting the free transport to my other workplace. :P

not everything is that cool. ever watched 'The Devil wears Prada'? yea, im like the PA in that show and my boss is like the lady (forgot her name). he'll sometimes sms me late at night or early in the morning like 7am to ask me to fix some appointments for him. -.-"

it was horrible during my 2nd day at work because of the heels that i was wearing was kinda spoilt and i haven have the time to go buy a new pair of heels so gotta put up w/ it. starting 1st day was 2 plasters at the heels (the back). 2nd day, 2 new plasters on each 'mother' toe... ouch. plus the both ends kinda hurt too. imagine i gotta run errands for my boss on the 2nd - 4th day.. walked up and down, here and there. so i tried to drink less water to avoid walking that much. sigh. ANYWAY, today (sunday) i went parkway to buy new pair of heels w/ clift. soon bian sold my game to a guy. wooHOO! at least to last me for another few days lah.

my first day of work was boring. i nearly fell asleep most of the time..i think my boss could see that lah. i wored shirt and pants, something which i was trying to avoid and yet.. now i have to dress in that sick outfits. felt VERY lethargic and my 'usual' energy wasnt there. but now abit used to it le lah and was starting to see how ppl dress up so that i can get some ideas on what to buy. plus.. i think its about time to put on some 'color' on my face lik wot clift had told me last time. some simple blusher plus lipstick. ugh~

this year will have a major change in my life and it'll be a hard life but im looking forward to it and at least now, i have some things in life to set my goal for. will not announce it till the time is right which will be around march.

oh ya, how's 2007? (shoo clift away while i type this coz.. its juz for him and i paiseh to show him..) Just wanna thank him for all the little things he did for me. ;)

Thank YOU for:
1. Always trying to make some time just for me eventhough it would mean double or triple the shit load of work to do for the following day/week.
2. Thinking of me with your short msgs, asking me to take care, reminding me to have my meals regularly, ...
3. SMS/MSN - ing me when u r superly bz. really appreciate that.
4. PUtting up with my nonsense at times..
5. Worrying for me be it my well being or something else.
6. heee, this one i'd rather keep it to myself. it was the most precious moment for me.

Thank you for loving and choosing me~ XXOOOOOXXXOXOXO

CNY's coming. time to meet some friends up during that period - provided i still have some $$.

lil showing off her choco which she's tryin to breed with some other people's choco. i think.. she's trying to run some chocobo breeding production co. her choco's not born long, she's already planning its future.. tsk tsk. anyway, her choco is still weak, runs slower than d ones that u have to rent and ... doesnt look any different from the rented ones too...


saw this bird flying by. to me, its a rare sight because i seldom see things flying on the sky..


a change of the main picture because... i find it v peaceful. i think i'd posted it up before somewhere.. but cant remember where. nvm. enjoy.

lastly.. realised that my friendster a/c was.. 'hacked'. time to change password. *stares at the person who tried to hack it* dont think i dunno its u! no wonder kept asking me funny questions.. idiot. and of all things, go del my pic......

yes.... am very happy now coz i juz sold off 1 of my game to this guy who's v steady de. stayed soooo near me somemore! wooHOOO! lol.

another game to b sold soon~~ weeeEEE!

at least it'll add some cash into my pocket for the time being since i have NOT received my pay for like.. 1 month?

alright.. since im in a good mood right now, shall post this link up. something that i found. Chiyo Mihama for clift who likes her (i think) and din see the story.

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n a song i heard that i'd like to share it w/ all. make it two.

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We could be together by Debbie(Deborah) Gibson
(she sang 'Electric Youth' too)

Verse:
If I were an only child
I would be a lonely child
But baby we've got nothing to lose
I'm standing tall in my own shoes
I'll take this chance
I'll make this choice
I'll right this wrong
I'll raise my voice
If it means
We'll be together
For a while


Verse:
I have never had a doubt
But for you I'll take time out
I'll push his love far away from me
And then I'll be completely free
I'll give up my security
For just the possibility
That we could be together
For a while


Chorus:
Oh if you said "Jump!" I'd say "How high?"
If you said "Run!" I'd run and fly
Just for the chance
Just for the moment
Should the moment pass us by
And if you ask once I'll tell you twice
I'll ignore the world's advice
If we could be together
For a while


Verse:
I am taken by your strength
I've thought about it at great length
I thought that I was happy now
But there are things that I found out
Happiness means greater things
I'll sit here 'til that telephone rings
Then we could be together
For a while


Bridge A:
Wait'll I tell my guy
Wait'll I tell my other friends
They'll all think I'm crazy --
And you know what?
That depends...
'cause I'm crazy in love
With you
And everyone's best won't do
They'll say my hopes
Will not come true
But I'm taking the chance
Because you only live once --
(Only live once, only live once)
And...


Bridge B:
There are no guarantees
But if it means
There's even a possibility
Then I'll give up whatever it takes
I know I've made mistakes before
It may be just another closed door
But we could be together
For a while

Littlest Things - Lily Allen

sometimes i find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
especially when i have to watch other people kissin'
and i remember when you started callin' me your miss's
all the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
i'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
i dont why i trusted you but i knew that i could
we'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
i was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

(chorus)
dreams, dreams
of when we had just started things
dreams of you and me
it seems, it seems
that i can't shake those memories
i wonder if you have the same dreams too.

the littlest things that take me there
i know it sounds lame but its so true
i know its not right, but it seems unfair
that the things are reminding me of you
sometimes i wish we could just pretend
even if for only one weekend
so come on, tell me
is this the end?

drinkin' tea in bed
watching dvd's
when i discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
you take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
as if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell i was nervous, so you held my hand
when i was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world that could replace you

(chorus)
dreams, dreams
of when we had just started things
dreams of me and you
it seems, it seems
that i can't shake those memories
i wonder if you feel the same way too

the littlest things that take me there
i know it sounds lame but its so true
i know its not right, but it seems unfair
that the things remind me of you
sometimes i wish we could just pretend
even if for only one weekend
so come on, tell me
is this the end?

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actually i quite like Debbie Gibson's songs.. most of em are quite good.
if u wanna listen to some of her songs, u can try here Debbie Gibson

posting updates though it may not be that good now coz am not feeling well. experiencing some painfullness - not stomach cramp.. its alrdy d 4th day le leh... which reminded me.. sorry to make u worried about me not taking my meals regularly. :P
coz the first thing he'd txt in his msg was 'taken ur dinner yet'? haha. paiseh. din know i have that reputation of not eating dinner embedded in u. however dont really have the appetite nowadays. din take lunch, not much desire for dinner and feeling giddy at times. perhaps something is really wrong w/ me. hmmmm. but i realised yet another thing thou.. on how much i eat depends on some particular factor.

well.. back to story. went for andy's gig last night at the Gas Haus. initially his band was scheduled to perform at 6.30pm but was pushed back till quite late. around 8pm? the few bands performing before his.. i wasnt really that interested as they were usually screaming their lungs out thou there were some which i quite enjoy - their beats, etc but not the singing part.

i may sound biased but i'd say andy's band is d best. i mean.. they dont scream, they play ok (thou i tot i may have heard some missed beats or sth. mayb my ears are not functioning well.. it was temporarily deaf from sitting too close to d speakers) and i quite like their own written songs. nice.. haha, perhaps partly is because d vocalist/guitarist was quite cute. (can imagine alson rolling his eyes and say 'there u go again..' after i told him that night.) imagine how romantic it is if he'd written a song for u and sang it to u... woooo~ i think d girl's heart will melt ah!

anyway, left after andy's band finished performing coz i was there solely for his gig.

somehow, i felt lucky again.. to have ppl caring for me eventhou they are bz w/ their own lives. last night was good. least i get to see someone whom we always try to meet up but will either cant make it today or something. hee. it was fun and i get to experience things which i think others dont get to. thanks man. for everything~*

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remember me mentioning about some memories popping up unexpectedly in my mind.. well, it was in sequence and last night, when some bands were playing, that last piece of memory came. and it reminded me of the time. v painful. n now, it kept popping, as if to tell me that its happening now. again.

told my 'bf' *winks* it and thanks for the blunt comments. really. i need that. i think.. another frd used to tell me that too..but in another way. i'll try to heed some of your comments and see if it works.

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welcome home babe! (haha, i knw u'll hate me for calling u a babe coz u prefer something else..) returned to sg quietly... tsk tsk. but im glad for the morning msges.. hee. least it helped perks me up earlier. :)
u r sweet. and.. i MISSES U v v v v much! XXOOOOXXXXXOO
btw.. i know its u who dropped it in my mailbox.. isnt that obvious? lalala~
but thanks.. i appreciate that. xD

went to checkout this bloggie featured in lil's msn bannable offenses. its all about ffxi but its entertaining and yet funny in a way that i think you peps can try reading the first few posts eventhough you aint a gamer or an ffxi player. got hooked with it and finished up to the very first post. cant stop laughing at some point thou i skipped some parts of the posts as they were too lengthy. oh, did i mention that there's some real-life incidences which were included in his posts? esp the DSL modem's light is not on part and i-need-ram part. super make you wanna vomit blood. lol. customer service and SG's not the only worse one.

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shouldnt have eat LAKSA today for dinner.. now rashes coming out. ugh. can i just click and drag my rashes to the recycle bin? no.. i think shift+delete will work better. gone for good. followed by a reformatting of PC.

dunno y, always feel v hungry at night. and wot a day it was.. no one's free to meet up. its always like that, when you are free, the others are not or the other way round. sounds familar? bet it happened to you before too.

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praying and hoping that clift will get well soon. :(
and also that his illness will go away for good.

which reminded me.... dont know whether am i been very naggy or over-concern or not. sometimes i try to overlook it and not to nag.. but usually its difficult. how do you define over-caring or under-caring? do people nag when they are concern? does being caring/concern counts as naggy? i cant differentiate with being over concern and moderate concern. thou i can know about dont-care at all.. but when it comes to that.. it would mean i dont give a shit about you anymore.

hmmm.. the above sounds very complicated? very pointless?

sometimes i cant help but to keep asking the same question because i do not have any assurance. because it happened before. because i'd rather find out the cause and have it cured before its too late, before it's beyond hope, before anything happens.

perhaps i worried too much? should i not if its someone whom i care alot for. regardless a family member, a lover or a friend. its the same, i do not wish to see anything happen to the people around me because it hurts alot. 10years may have passed but the grief is still there.

but then again.. people can take care of themselves. unless they really dislike me caring/nagging at them, they can tell me. thou so far ther's none yet. phew~ mayb people still like being pampered. hA. especially from such a SWEET and CUTE girl like ME! :P

hey hey, thats wot my future boss said ok?!

hmmm.. mayb.. hur hur.

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looking forward to playing the next game.. though wii has been on my much more nowadays. guessed im quite excited by the console itself. motion controllers, how cool is that?! cant wait to get my hands on that set!

gah.. another post of my FRUSTRATION... very BORING ah!!!!! i wanna go out~~~~~~~~~ grRRRRRRRRR!

juz posted up a late post dated December.. so back track see if u wan to. its about my 25th christmas dinner w/ aaron, jo, tuan, etc.

finally gotten 2 jobs. din know that it was a 100% sure get one.. keke. kinda lucky lah. hopefully after this, i wun have to change job again.. mayb.. being a PA is also not bad huh. :P

GANBATTE for year 2007~!!!!

time to start doing up my resolution list. :oh.. looking forward to wii too!! wiiIIII~ sounds kinda like wEEEE huh? so smart of them. makes u feel happy playing wii.

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if u'd noticed, i'd decided to remove the mp3 part because i realised that im too lazy to go load mp3 up plus my soundcard is spoilt and still have no changed it.. so heck it w/ the mp3 part. noone listens to it anyway, so no point putting it up.

edited some stuffs and im sure u'll catch it if you are a fan of mine..... *evil grin*

oh oh, thanks lil~ for helping me w/ the dropdown menu - changing the background color. i think i think too complex le.. THANKS again~! xD

was doing up my resume after my 'editor' uncle clifton said abit buay pass. saw his CV and i was really tempted to use that to submit. 100% sure get call up but 100% sure get fuk by the interviewers de. LOL.

anyway, was looking through my report books during secondary school and realised one thing.. my literature was constant throughout the first 2years of my sec life. oh, after that i wasnt doing lit liao.. coz only express class can do that. unfair hor? not bad leh.. i got 70~80plus hor hor! dun play play ah! lol. and found out that my lit, science and home econ was quite strong then. that applies for sec 1 and 2 only lah.

and... didnt know that he got such impressive... dun wanna disclose. HAHAHHAHAH. i see liao my eyes went O.O till now lor.

going for 2 interviews tmr. wish me luck! hope my plan gets to take off in march! *crossing fingers*

currently was playing Open Season on Xbox 360. Very cute and fun game, wher my favourite part was the roller coaster~! super fun man! its almost like you were sitting in that cart and going woooooo! even cooler if its like those 3D type.

oh back to the game. the starting scene seemed easy BUT dont be deceived by it. because there are some parts which is quite... challenging lah. for those who's familar w/ xbox 360, u'll know that they have this thing called 'Achievement Points' (if i didnt rememeber wrongly). so if you managed to collect all the badges in the game for that scene and complete the mission, u'll get a perfect mission completion and earning more gamer points as a results. you wouldn't get to do much with the accumulation of points but it is something that act as a friendly competition with friends, can show off and compare. heh

so, in order to complete all beautifully with the whole collection set (kinda reminded me of FF where you have to do some things to unlock certain games, items, characters, etc), i need to collect ALL badges. Gameplay wise, quite fun lah coz the animals are really cute and the graphics are just quite like wot u get to see in game.

anyway, was thinking of wot to do during my free time since i'm waiting to go for an interview. listed out the possibilities.

1. play FF - waiting for YS to get to 60~61 first .. so out.
2. do housework - which only required less than half a day to finish doing all
3. go out - too broke to go out everyday

which boils down to... the most ideal choice: study Japanese at home.
but.. i'd tried that and it gets rather frustrating for me when i'm stucked at some parts which i dont understand and no one to explain to me. dictionaries? nah.. they dont have much of the words. haiz. think mayb i'll do some spellings first and brush up on my kanji. one at a time and perhaps try to do alittle of grammar, etc?

for i used to do self study on my Science (chemistry/physics) anyway and managed to score points on that. why not japanese? it may even make me think harder and remember things more.

who knows, by then i can start conversing in fluent JP with miho san! hahahhahaha. yea.. dreaming now. oh ya! haven drop her a msg. >.<

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!

well, to keep it short, great dinner though i'm starting to feel alittle hungry now. all meat and no veggies..

clift just told me that he feel like playing WoW again and i told him the same thing which he'd told me last time: if you get addicted to the game, i'll leave u.

harsh as it sounds but i guess it is something that i can understand because.. it happened to me before in a way. right now, i'd gotten over my addictions and its not because of the gameplay or something but i guess im over it. i wouldn't feel that uncomfortable if i do not play for a day, etc. wouldn't have the feeling i used to have last time. people have their own preferences on what type of games they like to play, what type of platforms, consoles, etc. thats y you'll see some people who play FPS games only, rpg games only, etc or some who like to try certain types of games. i wouldn't tell you which game is sooo good that you must play but i'll just recommend some to you only and it's up to you and whether you play it or not, is your own business. unless you asked for my pov. or why some people just dont touch games. most people thought majority of the guys like playing games but.. it was wrong.

which, somethings happened which evoked some memories long forgotten and were as old as 6years back. pleasant and unpleasant. they'll popped in my head while i was working, with friends, with clift and even when i was sleeping. had me thinking things through and finding out more about myself, my patterns. i guess it helps. haha. when alarm bells ring, it would mean either to quickly set things right or to let it go.

again, something happened - a friend's number (whom i didnt contact for a really long time like 3years?) suddenly appeared in my mobile. was it a pleasant surprise or was it not? i wasnt the one who stopped contacting her anyway, she was. now she came back telling me that she's single and is back to where she'd belonged.

and just a few days back, another number surfaced.. telling me that he was back in SG and would love to meet up and catch up on old times, ya right. another one who disappeared from my life and gotten my number from a friend. i'd since changed my number then. perhaps, there are some people in your life whom you'd once tried so desperately to find/contact them but was unsuccessful and the moment you gave up doing that, they eventually find their way to you. most of the time, screwing up your life.