Tuesday, March 26, 2013

I love my friends.

I just realised how much influence my friends have over me. So much that it stopped me from doing something so they won't see it and be disappointed.

Maybe I will give excuses that I just don't want them to nag at me, be angry at them internally for meddling in my affairs but deep down, I know they care and it stopped me. In some ways of course.

I do appreciate for having them as my friends and knowing them. :)
Even though I may behave like a rebellious child acting defiantly when they tried to stop me from doing something. And it is for my own good.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Marching to nowhere


Did I mention that I had a bad rash around my tattoo some time ago? I guess it was due to the heat (I did not tie up my hair then) and the tattoo goo (oil based) which was a bad mix. I changed to an aloe vera gel instead and applied on my tattoo. The rash had disappeared by then and it is all good now. :)





Little soldier wannabe. Hehe, the little one just can't wait to serve the nation. He is growing so fast and is now walking, except for the little wobble now and then. Crawls a little at times and wants to be carried when he's lazy. Now he will lift his arms and legs when someone is changing his clothes. Understand us when we talked to him. Soon, he will be learning to talk instead of blabbering his baby language.





His parents were working late and it was past the usual time. Elijah was waiting for them by the gate. So poor thing.

Haven't have much to update lately. Time to hit the books.. Hope I have the discipline to study........ and not fail. :(

At times I really feel like giving up and wonder why am I studying? Why? Maybe I should just repeat the modules, and graduate in what, 5 years' time. That's crazy!!!!!
I am glad to have people to push me to study, encouraging me and even gave  me sweets as my energy boost! Plus the course fees.. that's also what deters me from not trying. I do hope to do well.....

Good luck to me!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Just some random stuffs.. Happy Sunday! (:

Okay.. One of my faithful reader was asking why no blog updates! So here are some random updates!!


I put this photo as my Whatsapp profile picture and Mr B. Tan was asking that photo was I? And actually asked how come so pretty? OMG! Mr Tan!!! Haven't you been noticing me???? I've always been this pretty can?? Mr C. Tan was asking why am I a goldfish.. =.="

What do you think of my above photo?




Elijah always walk over and tugged at my jeans or top to pull me down so that he can grab me and don't let go. He loves going out! Yes, he is growing up fast and is learning to walk now. He can cover longer distance like from the kitchen to the bedroom without losing his balance unless he gets too excited or starts clapping his hands. He can't multitask yet. Haha!




Hachiko was so nice to loan me his nano watch!! I was really surprised but also feel very bad for loaning it for so long.. It is damn cool can!




Decided to go Changi Village and eat the nasi lemak again since it just opened after renovation. The queue was sooooo long that I gave up and went to check out something else...




Elijah had just turned one end last month! Boy.. I still missed those times when he was still a newborn, just a few months old, learning to crawl, and now.. walk! Soon he will be talking... Sigh.. time flies.

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So, I was just thinking of this..

What if the person you are dating treats you bad? Or flares up at you any time? Prefers to spend time with friends? Or wouldn't want to make the effort to go somewhere where you want to go/see? For example, you have a sudden craving for like McDonalds? Or want to go to a particular place to view something, but your partner is either too lazy to go with you?

And what if someone came along and does quite the opposite? The person remembers what you said and make sure to bring you there on the next trip; brings you to satisfy your craving? Is really sweet on you.

Will it make your heart sway? Even by a little bit?

How about I make things a little sweeter?

The person you are dating is just starting out on their career? Or is not ready to grow up yet? Still young in their thinking and not ready to commit to anything? Has no ready goals.

The other person on the other hand, is also just starting out on their career with a goal in mind? Is ready to commit to a long term relationship and had grown up, matured. You know for sure that you will have a stable and comfortable life with the person. (Ok, maybe the last sentence sounds more like for a girl.)

How's that?

Both are maybe of the same age or close enough.

What happen if there are two of that nice persons?

Someone said, most importantly is how the person in dilemma feels.

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Sigh, I guess I am still being a girl. I still want to have a day special enough that will make me remember for life. A day where I am being surprised.

Like the last time, I think my one and only most memorable Valentine's Day was 12 years back. That was the only time I received two bouquets of flowers! And one of them was being really sweet, after hearing what had happened to me.



Anyway, I will be ending this post for now. Zzzz monster is calling out for me.

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Over-thinking? Emotions vs Rationale

One of the few things that were burning on my mind was "What happens when a couple has nothing much to talk about when they were together?" Does that spells the end of a relationship?

After checking around with a few friends, I realised that it all depends on the person's character. If the person is talkative while the partner is not - that reminded me of a really cute couple. Then the talkative person will be doing most of the talking while the quiet one listens and throws in a few responses.

Another couple will be they just simply have to keep talking to each other otherwise they will feel very uncomfortable even to the extend of being unable to sleep at night if they don't talk or if the wife did not hear her husband's voice!

While one will make fun of his girlfriend and once he starts that, his girlfriend will tease him mercilessly.

His girlfriend is not in town, however before that, they were together for 6 years and still counting! Before that, they had their ups and downs, apart from family and religion, it will be just them, their relationship.

So from here, I conclude that no relationship is alike. And even if it comes to a point of the couple has few words for each other, as long as the feelings is still there, that matters most. If no communication then do it with action! Like while eating, if the partner's mouth is dirty or has leftovers, wipe it off for them. This is a gesture, to show you care. Or just holding your partner's hand without letting go, or hugging them, putting your hand over their shoulder, even if it is a quiet walk.

And a friend said I think too much. Perhaps that's the case. If you start thinking "Hey, we have nothing to talk about" and you will start feeling stress that something is wrong with this relationship, whether is it going downhill, etc.

I saw this post that says: Over thinking can slows down your brain.

Maybe think of activities to do together. Singapore is small, how about going overseas?

Plan a one-day Batam trip, bicycle riding in Pulau Ubin or Malaysia!

How about walking? The old railway is opened to public, take a walk there, take photos of your partner, with your partner, the scenery there. There's a natural reserve at Sungei Buloh, you can walk there, maybe you will be lucky to see a tree snake - I did! Or a big monitor lizard soaking in the sunlight in the middle of the path!

What other activities can you think of?


Sometimes, staying at home, watching tv and enjoying your company is what your partner want. :)

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A friend of mine posted something on Facebook, about Emotion and Rationale.

Somehow, I can relate to this totally after what had happened.

No matter how rationale the person is, emotion will still take over.

It is like a fight between the Devil and the Angel in you. One telling why it's wrong and the other telling you it's wrong but just do it!

When Emotion takes over, the parties involved tend to get hurt the most. No one will be happy.

Why Rationale always lose to Emotion then? I'm not sure, maybe people just give in to emotion because emotion makes them feel better? Being rationale does not make you feel happy. It just points out the obvious. Emotion is like ecstasy, it makes you feel high, however when the effect is gone, it makes you feel like shit.

Found this in Wiki when I typed Ecstasy:
Ecstasy (philosophy), a term used to mean "outside-of-itself"

Which I feel is quite right.

Guess only the most strong-willed person can fight Emotion over Rationale.

Me? It depends on the situation, however I did let emotion took over rationale once. And I will NEVER let that happen again. Maybe before just jumping in, I will take time off to think rationally. Pushing emotions away no matter how tempting it is to have a taste of sweetness.

Friday, March 01, 2013

Someone you are missing now?

Was on the topic of having someone close to you passing away. Or had passed away.

Asking someone how did they deal with it, not feelin sad, especially if is your parent or grandma. Sounds rude. Because you won't get over it. Will never get over it.

That somehow reminded me of someone close to my heart.

Actually it has been about 16 years since he had passed away and I still cannot forget that night when I saw him for the last time. When he came to my dream.. It all felt too real.

I guess he is someone whom I will never forget. His name, his nickname, his face, everything. Even though we had spent a short 2 years together.

Until now, I am still trying to find where his ashes rest at.

I wonder where has he reincarnate to. Still an Asian? Or a Caucasian now? In Singapore or overseas? Will I get to see him one day and whether will I feel any sense of familiarity when I bump into him? I really wish I will see him one day.

I didn't realize that every year without fail, I will think of him. Finding where he rests at now. Whether will I get to see him again..

How are you doing now?