my virgin trip to a sex shop last tuesday. hur hur hur.

went over to find san and took a look around inside. its so..... interesting? no.. not powerful enough. its.. i don't know, but i felt curious and embarrassed at the same time. coz it's my first time there. saw alot of toys for people, guys and girls (though i think ther's more variety for girls, haha), virginals with or without hair, dildo that can be bent at certain angle, different surface, different size (yes and most of the sizes are what you cant find on men but who need a guy w/ big dick when he cant satisfy you in bed right? ;) ), virating condoms, costumes and accessories. saw a brochure on the items wher it's S&M related, half face mask, full face mask(its kinkier), whips, cuffs bind by chains or by itself, 'underwear' for guys and girls, etc. interesting eh? oh! and also balls of breasts! lol. no idea for what as its so... rubbery.. hahah. i wonder how guys felt when they are sucking on that kinda stuff.. though it does feel soft but doesnt feel like a real one and yes, you can 'press' on it, ther's nipple too. :P

dont really remember what else i saw there.. and saw some cute keychains. haha. need sex toys? lemme know! no live demo though. HAHAHAH! that's the top 1 question asked by guys whom i called up. asked them to demo instead lor. y muz girls demo n they see? crazy. they get better deal anyway. they get to use it and feel happy w/ it while the rest can only watch on and fantasize.

this song was running in my head since this morning while working and humming it.

ps: aaron, thanks for your concern btw. :P

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All Out Of Love
by JAGGED EDGE


I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong, so wrong

was in the bus on the way back last night.. seemed like Mr Rain(not the korean guy of coz) and i have fate.. always kena him when i was about to do something, leave for somewhere, etc. mayb he misses me. was on the way home last night, he came down to look for me. leaving me strained at the bus stop. today, i was about to leave from a restaurant after gettg d keys from bart, he came to gimme morning kiss. so sweet of him.

some guy sat behind me last night in the bus and propped his legs up at the back of my seat. super irritating. wish i have some durians w/ me so i could threw it on his crotch! grrRRR!

hahahahha, didnt know aaron reads my blog. :P
thanks sweetie, hahahhaa. didnt know u were admiring me since poly. kya kya kya kya! and now stalking me, misses me so much ah? hahahhaha. ok, juz kidding.

felt good meeting up with friends last night. didnt meet up for some time and one, who he n me macham no fate lidat, as we always wanted to meet up but didnt get the chance to, finally meet up last night too. good to see them and catch up on alittle.

and thanks dearie.. for giving me such surprise. am really.. surprised. lol.
though i think in the long run, u will feel tired doing that.. coz that's wot happened to me last time too. but... am enjoying while it lasts. kya kya kya. mayb shld ask for more.. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! dun freak out.. im juz kidding.

so paiseh.. that lil always have to wait for me in game.. lik the chocobo raising, etc. sorry dear.. >.<

also, to catch up w/ a friend whom i know some time back, it felt really good talking to her again. am glad that im not lost and forgotten in her mind. ;D

went to the bank earlier. was waiting at a junction under the protection of raffles hotel while waiting for mr green to give me the signal to cross the road. there i stood, dreaming.

the drizzling rain are like snow flakes (though i have never see it before in real life), falling softly. the weather was just nice, not too sunny bright nor dark. it was warm. the comfortable type of warm. giantic christmas tree stood there waiting for passerbys to take photo with it. it just felt wonderful to me. imagine people dressed up in winter clothing and me, blending in with them. no hurry, not in a rush, just relax.

all disappeared as mr green brought me back to reality. but the feeling still linger in me.

you have just been warned.. this post is super long.


was checking through my emails (which i think some of you may have received it by tonight). found some rather interesting ones which i'd like to share. esp the last one: Kissing Style by Horoscope. How true was that for mine.

found this very interesting yet simple game. Fly a Helicopter

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Once there was a young woman who didn't like her job. Everyday when she came home from work, she told her husband how terrible her day had been, how tiring the work and how unreasonable her boss. "Leave that job," her husband told her.

"Oh I will," she said. "But not yet. I have too many friends there for me to leave just yet." And so she complained until the days became years and her family grew to five.

"Leave that job," her children told her. "Oh I will," she said. "But not yet. I have seniority and four weeks vacation I can spend with you. I'm not ready to start over just yet."

And so she remained unhappy at work until the years became decades and her children had children. "Leave that job," her grandchildren told her. "Oh I will," she said. "But not yet. There's only seven more years until I reach thirty years of service and can retire. So I can't just yet."

I know this woman. And so do you. And there are scores like her. This reminds me of the story about an old dog half-asleep on the porch of the general store, moaning and groaning in the sun. "Why is your dog acting that way?" a customer asked the store owner. "Oh," answered the man, "he's lying on a nail." "Well, why doesn't he move?" "Because it's not hurting him bad enough."

That's true for people, too. We convince ourselves the pain is not bad enough to leave the workplace we know. But we're wrong. Prolonged work pain is damaging. Some damages our self-esteem, kills our passion or destroys our dreams. Some emerges when we compromise our values, quiet our voice or hide our talent. Some happens when we're seduced by power or believe our own myths of importance and significance. Some occurs when we look the other way, say yes when we mean no or forfeit the promises we made to ourself.

Wilbur Wright, of the Wright brothers fame, once commented, "We could hardly wait to get up in the morning." I know that exhilarating feeling of being so passionate about something I was working on that I couldn't wait to get back to work. And people who are winning at working know that kind of passion, too. They get excited about work.

They thrive offering their unique gifts and talents. And when things change as they sometimes will, they refuse to let a soul-depleting boss or environment hijack their self-esteem, passion or dreams. When work becomes work, they stop lying on a nail and do something about it.

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When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

Kinda makes sense doesnt it?

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Kissing Style by Horoscope

Aries
Your kisses are quick and passionate fits of lustful pleasure that are there and then gone.

Taurus
Your kisses linger; they are deliberate, heartfelt and they can go on and on and on...

Gemini
Your kisses are interrupted by spasms of giggles, smiles and funny observations.

Cancer
Your kisses are warm and tender, and you never want to let them go.

Leo
Your kisses are wild and uninhibited, biting and clawing; you expect applause for your performance.

Virgo
Your kisses are so subtle and tidy, your lover only notices them once you've finished.

Libra
You're too busy worrying about your breath to really get into your kisses.

Scorpio
You skip the kiss and get to straight to ... whatever comes next for you.

Sagittarius
Your kisses are surprising, spontaneous affairs that leave the kissed wanting more.

Capricorn
Your kisses are intense moments of sublime relief from the stress of your day.

Aquarius
Your kisses are wet and messy, and you tend to keep your eyes open.

Pisces
Your kisses are starry-eyed, amorous and long-lasting.

So.. what's yours? I kinda like the Sagittarius coz it sounded very romantic to me. (i know im a sucker for romantic thingy) followed by cancer then.. taurus.

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enough of that, now to key in what i was thinking of during my whole journey back home.

am trying not to take things for granted especially when everything is going smoothly for me (fingers crossed). a job that im starting to enjoy, friends who cared for me and never ever forget about me and a good bf whom i know is trying his best to make time for me eventhough he was extremely bz or tired. i mean, what more can i ask for? perhaps you might read this para twice or thrice but i dont give a fuk because i need to constantly remind myself of the good things that were around me. what for thinking and reminding ownself of the bad things that were happening?

lik tonight while i was on the way to my bus stop. every traffic light i was approaching turned red (the man), can't find anyone to have dinner with, down with flu and slight cough (being sick can sometimes brings you down too) and a headache coming up, missed the bus, etc. could go on and on but i thought i'd just make the best of it. why be sad about it? i'll just wait for another bus while listening to my mp3 and as for dinner kaki.. hey hey. chris juz returned my call and he might be able to meet me for dinner! so, to keep it short, lik what thomas always whistle "look on the bright side of life".

ps: you are always welcome for a huggie. ;)
you should know who you are!

i think i ought to sit down one fine day and be alone (ya right, as if i can do that). and think things through, think of what i want in life (i think for now should be to be happy and friends to be happy) and my goal in life.

had written that life is short but after reading that email i had and think about it. ya~ life is the longest that i ever had, so what the fuk is w/ the people who's saying life is short? ok, life is short when you meet with a fatal accident. hence, i wanna make every part of it worthwhile. i may live long but i dont wanna live in vain. i dont wanna work my life away without stopping for a moment to smell the roses and neglecting things such as those who are close to me. i dont wanna forget myself.

time is never enough, wish it was like a pie where i could cut it equally. a time for this, a time for that and that and that. doesnt have to be the same but just enough to fit everything in. somebody's greedy huh?

was reminded of the first time i met vivi when we went to mos burger last friday. our first dinner was at mos burger, amk then. again, he treated me, stubborn old fella. i missed him man! to think i used to go over to his place to play games, see his collection, etc. and claire joining us for dinner at night.

the time when it was a super gloomy day (really bad that i was crying hard) for me and clift cheered me up (through msn of course and we werent together yet!) by making fun of himself and his lousy mandarin which was in fact better than mine when spoken, not written. ha ha~ and i remembered that for the first time on that day, i laughed out loud.

ah, those sweet memories. how can i ever forget?

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found another webbie thanks to san. found it quite true which she agreed too. go check it out!

Horoscope Astrology for Lovers

tell me what you think!

for the first time i felt sooo tired (and i'm not drunk!) that i could just drop on my bed and sleep. went to help out at Sexpo which was quite exciting for me. its not my first time attending and working in an exhibition but its a different feeling for me everytime.

i get to understand how it was like for the girls who's trying to get sales outside, get to meet some people especially one who was our subscriber! very friendly man. oh, and sg national swimmer (or rather, ex-swimmer) leslie kwok was there too. he owned this company called 'Element Spa'.

get to meet alot of new friends which was more like a hi-bye kinda part except for one girl maybe.. i'll ask for her no. i need to make more F-E-M-A-L-E friends!!!! and... met up w/ vivi!!! he bought me a cute pinkish~orangey bag and a scented candle in jelly form.. heheh ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!

chris called a few days back. missed him alas.. i havent had the time to stop and chat with him as much as i want to. this month was a busy busy one for me. i think i am starting to like this job, very happening and always trying to think up of some events. though sometimes i hate the PR part where i have to be friendly to guys with ulterior motive.

weird.. some guy juz msg me saying that we'd met at some place which i dont recall going at all. saying we'd met, exchange nos and drank together. said i was alittle tipsy then.. doh. did anything happen? and if it happened some time back, why now then he msg? (oh coz he just saw my name/no while flipping through his contact cards -.-)i dont remember. think i should drink less. do more things when i was tipsy. could remember that night was qbar, practically chatted up with anyone, even the young waiter (ok, mayb he's just slightly younger or older thanme), the bouncer/sercurity and the ladies in the washroom. good thing is.. i dont gel with the older batch of men. neither are they interested in me. perhaps.. i can continue not being too smart and act stupid for once.

weird #2: its not exactly weird but.. i was quite touched when some strangers who either never meet you before or met once only can be so concern when you are sick. mayb they have hidden motives but heck. when you are sick, you wanna be pampered and b treated like a princess. hehehe. ok, mayb not like a princess but at least they showed some concern. :)

the above was drafted out while i was in the office typing halfway before i lost the mood to do so.

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recently, too many old memories surfaced. sweet ones of course especially during my poly year 1? my night safari girl. began listing things that attracted me to people and decided to shelve it aside as too many people's name surfaced (who unfortunately either wasnt interested in me or the other way round). too high of an expectations?

was i being too easy as in easy to woo? came at the wrong time and the wrong place? just as they were nursing their broken heart, i happened to pop at the wrong time and they decided to 'invest' in me? no thanks.. that'd prolly make me feeling very insecure.

received a txt from a friend which was meant for his friend and apparently, it was sent wrongly to me. (which reminded me of what most people said when things like that happened. it happened to john's friend too. which was, because the sender was too used to txting that person that they'll accidentally send over to them OR because they were thinking of that person)

i guess this phrase was rather true.. 'curiousity kills the cat'. something like that. can't really remember as its frikking 4am now and i have 4hrs of sleep before my alarm ring. mayb less than 4hrs. but i just need to get this off my chest as i know that he will be reading this. i hope he meant what he says..

who says that a person who had past few relationships are the most 'advanced'? every rs are different. each time w/ a new partner, u'll fnd yourself a lost again because the person has a different character, habits, needs, wants, etc. no matter how confident you are, thinking that you'll be able to handle a new rs, it'll still not be the same.

ugh, fuk! too many things running through my mind. cant sleep in peace. grrrRRR! shall leave smses for tmr.

***** decided to truncate some txt *****

shit... shouldn't have eat chocolate last night. ate 2 packets of kitkat (yea.. greedy me. >.<) and now im paying for the price!!!!!!!!!

sore throat (think ima gonna croak like a frog in a few days) and feeling alittle giddy with slight fever. ahahahhaa, i declare de. :P

met up w/ cat & doris (hahhahah happy for him coz i prefer doris than ... and she's much cuter and friendler and mature-r). went back to office to get a copy of our magazine for john who's leaving today. such coincidence, saw andy at the bus stop. ahh the cute 'italiano' guy.. hehe. it was good meetg up with them again. must think of smarter answers to 'shoot back' at john and wellington!!! grrrRR!

ok, gonna quick finish work and go home rest. v tired n dun feel sooooo good.

finally.. some time to sit down and update my full-of-spider-web blog. have not idea when's the last post dated.

below, thanks to claire who took the pics for me while preparing the spaghetti (yes, it tasted yummy!) while i played ps2 - basara II.



the X06 event. i was staring at this image for a long time while waiting for clift to finish packing. couldn't find the object that was flashing on it and i was too proud to ask clift. :P

no, my assumptions was that most prolly it was on the ground and tilted up to face the building. common sense no?



the exteriors. i kind of like the outline of the 'dome' shaped tents but i dont really like the inside. especially the exit tent as it was very squeezy.



the very yuky strawberry milkshake i bought from a cafe at the national library beside bras basah.



the very yummy chips that san got for me. it was the big pack w/ seaweed and fresh chips. oooh so yummy.. can imagine the taste in my mouth now as i pretend to take a chip from the packet in the picture and put it inside my mouth. pity, im down with a sore throat, so don't really have the mood to enjoy that taste now. raped 2 kit kats that dr had bought. damn! chocs + 2hours of phone calls makes a very sore throat.



san bought this yet again when she went to 7-11. bought it randomly for me and decided on this because it's cute and im cute too. hehe.

cute image on drink + cute face on a girl = overly cute that you could burst into smilies when ever you see us. hehe. (its crap.)



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went for an event on last friday (17.11.06) at Qbar. It was entry for LADIES only with free drinks! YAY!! ok, though i'm not a good drink and can't really appreciate alcohols but it bets having to pay for a drink which is NOT cheap ok?!

dressed up:



simple and nice. ^.^b

reached there and went to a room to put my bag where... i saw hunks inside, HALF-NAKED! wahahahahahahah. beautiful bodies and omg, they are cute! (there's one who's a hot fave among the ladies but i'm not really sure and didnt get to take any pic of that guy as i was too busy doing PR-ing.) anyway, was kinda nervous as it's my first time to an event and because it's free entry (via invitation only i think), GUYs CANNOT enter! so.. alvin passed his task of phototaking to me. T_T

but it was good as it made me walk around talking to the ladies there. got to chat up with some really nice ladies and so far, my experiences with them were quite pleasant as there's not fake-ness within them. i think i was more on a star-hunting mission instead as most of them dressed up and have the star-lookalike face. so i'd always go 'hey! u looked lik xxx star, etc'.

was quite drunk by 9.30pm (which means guys can come into the room) as i was drowning lots of champagne and some red colour shots which reminded me of watermelon drink. it was sweet but definitely not ribena volka! whole event was quite a success and also something which i like and.. unfortunately went wild at. damn. imagine me dancing with my colleagues at the platform and people there were snapping pics away at us. and... worse thing, i DONT KNOW how to dance.. how embarrassing. damn!!

saw marcus yeo (my sec 1 friend) at a coffeeshop. wah he never change at all. still the same. yet to meet up with him as our appointment on tues was cancelled by me.

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last monday (20.11.06), john aka jin called me up last min to say that he's in SG and would like to meet up and gave me the most impossible task of rounding up all FR members in FF. as it was too last min, ended up, i was the only one to go and meet him. saw him and his cute friend (who looked lik an italiano), they watched me eat while we chatted alittle here and there. after dinner, we were joined by another of his friend - wellington (of was it welling only?) another friendly guy.

after sitting around and chatting at coffeeclub, i suggested catching a show. only available show which was good was Step Up. it reminded me of the show by Julia Stiles (if i didnt get her name wrong) but i'd prefer Julia's show as i like her acting style more. Step Up's storyline was not that good with predictable scenes and i dont really like the girl in the show. But i love the dancing scenes, again, it's a fusion between ballet and freestyle. the kind where one has classes in school and the other was they dance with the music in their heart or something. OST was good too. Catch it at Cathay, better if you have UOB visa card (debit/credit) as its super cheap!

our big event's coming up and initially i was thinking of skipping it.. now i can't even absent myself at all as i'd promised some fellas that i'll be there and they can go over and look for me at the party. damn. think it's another drunk night with free drinks i hope. ;D

was replying a friend's message last night and suddenly her name popped into my mind! ok, it was just her nickname anyway. still, better than nothing. am unable to put my finger to her name thou.. wonder what was it and whether will i be able to recall it?

overslept and was rushing to shower, change while trying to see which clothes was appropriate and fits best for tonight's event at Qbar. managed to dress simple w/ some accessories. thanks to dajie, who helped me out. by the time i reached paragon for my eyebrow trimming, the heels of my right foot was bruised.. yet again. same place, same size and same amount of pain. it hurts more this time and i cant even walk properly! sigh.. the price to pay for vanity. think i really need to go and get some new pairs of heels and shoes. lik what roy said, better to get now before the gst hike. damn! what can we do but to suck it and deal with it. i wonder, how am i gonna walk about later... gotta bear with it and.. the thought of shower made me grimace.

anyway, back to my eyebrow trimming. went over to wing and i was so surprised that she still remembered me! she was asking 'you came alone this time huh?'. i was lik '!!'. surprised and we chatted alittle while she trimmed my eyebrows. turned out that she was my age and hey hey! we looked the same, forever 18yrs! HAHAHHA.

oh well, shall try to take some pics tonight if possible since i didn't/forgot to charge my camera's battery.

gotta make more friends in the EAST!!!! for easier late night makan kakis.

damn!!!! really gotta blog this. i mean, it doesnt concern anyone but just me but i just wanna put it out here.

went to visit one very very 'long time never been to' webbie and saw the hearts that 2 of my friends had sent me. omg.... they were lik, constantly sending me hearts (its like saying how are you, and you are not forgetten kinda stuff) and i saw 2 messeages in the message box. omg.. there were the message sent by the 2 friends. saw the date and it was..... august 2005!!!! omg!! to think till now, i have not reply them! omg! i felt soooo guilty man! damn!!

went to drop them a mail. waiting for their reply. omg... hahah. am feeling so high now. =P

am really glad to have know them. and.. i was reminded of this girl who left a very deep impression on me.. wonder how is she doing now and whether is she still working at night safari. she loves animals... ^.^

i think im like a live wire now.

caused of it? DELL pc.

dunno why.. but i realised that im quite not myself lately... its lik.. i dont feel so me.. my mind now always thinking. thinking of ALOT of things. cant stop thinking. felt kinda insecure, no idea why. sometimes i'll think of something and i'll counter it w/ a good logic as it makes sense. yet, that problem just wun go away.

recalled talking to uncle once when we were at this jp restaurant. he said some things which made sense and once via msn which also made sense. sometimes, i wonder whether am i pulling the rope too tight? am trying hard not to, wonder whether am i being over..bearing? overdoing things? think i think too much le but what to do? cant stop thinking about things.

am so not feeling/being myself right now. is something wrong with me? mayb i should go up to the mountain and 'meditate'. come down and gain a level up, come and enlighten people. (ok, that's crazy)

mayb im being selfish. felt like a nub at times.

even have the urge to go buy WoW and play at lan shop 24/7 straight for mayb a week? 'bi men guan hu' i think..

and today, felt superly hungry.. feel lik eating yet dont feel lik eating. went down to buy food. suddenly, felt like cancelling my order. and go on a starve craze. no food for the day. till i meet cat for dinner i guess?

so felt.. no life. thou i have great friends surrounding me, ever ready to help me. what fuk am i thinking?

anyway think im gonna b sick w/ all those snackings i have in my office. woke up this morning w/ a sore throat... -.-"

dun worry too much thou, i'll get myself sort out in no time. mayb i'll juz defrag myself and scan for viruses in my body. i will not... i repeat myself.. WILL NOT reformat myself!!!!!

come, gimme a hug or a kiss~~~
xxoo

ohhhhh got my specs today. my NEWLY made specs! took a pic but haven upload coz no time.. hahahhaa. i VERY busy de. its a very tough choice when i was presented with three specs. down to two. 1 was the black with full frame (i quite like that as it was very nice, v studious, v 'si wen' you know? STOP sniggering on the last part!) and the other was half frame, red in colour. i quite like red frames as it kinda fits me since my skin was quite fair. so ended up with the red half frame one.

which reminded me... i went over to collect my specs and looked for the same lady - sally who served me. which made me very dulan.. coz i was standing in front of her while she was serving another client (but she was juz cleaning the lens of something for him!) but she practically I G N O R E D me lor! WTF?! totally different attitude when she was serving me the first time lor! if i know better, i WOULDNT have purchase my specs from her! BITCH!

ended up, another lady came over and asked how can she help me. she was very good. (damn that i forgot to ask for her name) she actually helped me to adjust the new specs till it was fit to wear and even helped me clean my OLD specs, adjust and tighten the screw! wah lau, and all along, she was very.. friendly, very motherly type. shit man!

met up w/ claire today for dinner and he treated me the riverside... stall. forgot the name of that stall. it was good and the potion was alright but i cant finish it as usual. managed to catch up on alot of things man! afterwards, went to meet up with san for a show - crank. not bad! for more info, go check out their synopsis. its a many blood show but instead of making it very serious, they made it comical at the same time. quite a nice show and heard from san that the actor acted in transporter 1 & 2. quite 'nai kan' actually and... i love his lips. hahha. the korean (i think) aka the baddie was quite good looking too! san n i quite like him. hahah. very muscular. =P

thought i'll update alil here.

went to cineleisure at 10am (yea! no kidding!) to see clift present + demoing a new game called Gears of War. there were some people who were members of some organisation called Stomp i suppose. coz a guy was asking whether was i a memebr of that group and when i said no, and pointed at clift after he asked who was i with or something.

anyway, the game was quite impressive and its a third person view game. basically it requires you to use the surrounding barriers (can be the sand barriers, dropped pillars, rusted cars, etc) to protect yourself from the incoming bullets from the locusts aka the mobs or what people will say 'the bad guys'. you will have a choice of 3 weapons to use. (there's one which has the 'chainsaw' where u can run up to the opponents and saw it for instant death which i think was quite popular w/ some players whos playing on the versus game ((which reminded me of counter strike))) The grenade is another thing. you can aim and there'll be a line of fire to show where your grenade will land and the angle, etc so as to ensure your grenade will be fully utlised. the reloading of the gun ammos is another challenge. there'll be a bar below your gun's picture and during reloading, you can choose to reload faster by pressing on the right bottom tab at the white line (you'll know if you see the game) or let it reload by itself which will take a longer time and IT IS CRUCIAL for you to reload fast if there's alot of locusts popping out. oh and you have to stay alive.. yes. coz there's no health pots for you to consume. juz take note of the red logo when you are hit.

ohh, another thing about the game was.. i realised that the AI was hmmm, very good? (sorry, cant think of a good word for it now) dont think just because they were computer controlled so it'll be smooth sailing for you. i thought the AI used on the npcs in f.e.a.r was already quite good.. but GoW proved me wrong. they'll run and hide and sneak up on you from the back and they dont just run or stand there blindly for you to shoot at. hey, to think of it, its almost like those in f.e.a.r man! but.. not as good.

the graphics in the game was good! realistic environments and i kinda like the storyline though it creeps me out alil shivers at the thought of the part where you have to be in a lighted place and you'll be DEATH if you ever leave the light.

dont know how to really put my thoughts into words but i can say one thing, GOOD JOB! you can play w/ another player online or you can play w/ your friend using the spilt screen mode for the campaign (storymode) which is great when you need to get some extra items and need a friend to help you on that. otherwise, it'll be the versus mode.

for more trailers, pics, storys, etc.. go visit this webbie and see bah.
Gears of War - SG
Gears of War - emergence day

sorry.. i like this game (though it freaks me out but.. hehe) so. pardon me for the whole page of that game thingy.

emergence hole! lookout!!
me looks out of the window and saw locusts popping
yikes!! ran over to uncle clifton and jump on him
clift pulls out chainsaw and starts sawing them all
me saw a sniper gun nearby, ran to pick it up while hiding behind barricades.
reload and starts blowing their heads off.
GOOD JOB!

fyi peps, some of my older pics will not work because the url that stores my pics will be closing down in nov and im too lazy to shift them to the other site which im using now. so.. dun panic ok? ^.~

forgot to thank cat.. last night thanks for your concern! hahah, but when u mention d word 'makan' really made me v hungry that moment lor!!!

bart accidentally broke a bottle yesterday before leaving for msia w/ doc. so san n i cleaned it up. she brought over a plastic bag (the kinda put clothes type) and was commenting on the red dot on the bag.

san: it'll look lik blood if you didnt know what it is
me: *kpo go wipe it and see if its real paint or sth*
-- 'paint' got smudge and i instantly knew wher it came from --
we were looking at each other with big saucer eyes and i think.. i laughed. hahah. well, u have to be there when the whole event happened.

went to do manicure/pedicure today w/ mom. hahahahhaha! it was interesting i shld way. alot of work and i loved being pampered. did french manicure on my hands and.. i think i should have stick to plain transparent polish.. coz in less than a day, some parts got smudge/cut/etc. damn! it was nice though n i love it! haha, no pics thou! u'll have to meet me to see it!

too bad, thought i could have the chance to eat at ECL tonight while meeting uncle.. but.. it was RAINING (not that i hate rain, i LOVE it but..not when im planning to go somewhere where your shoes will get messy and dirty when u walk all over the place).. so decided to change location. feeling kinda hungry now..

yesterday took off at 3pm to go.... SHOPPING! meeting xiaobai at bugis.. from there, we took bus 7 to orchard. bought his crumpler bag (finally. you should see his happy face. damn, should have take a pic then. *starts putting camera in bag for good*) and we walked back to heeren to look for MY clothes. xiaobai was already going low on his energy level as he had woke up early for his driving lessons.

saw... terence lim in heeren after i'd bought my top. he called me the first time, i ignore because i thought it could be somebody calling for their friend and.. i didnt expect to bump onto any of my friends in town. i don't know why but it just seems like everyone except me will bump onto their friends anywhere. it was good seeing him again since poly. he'd grew bigger - muscular but the face still the same. hahaha. tanner now.

our total shopping hours spent was 2hours! bought 2 tops from giordano. i quite like the top as its the plain white one. 1 for S$16, 2 for S$26. what a deal! and another dark red (i guess) top from the shop i bought my brown er.. oriental top from. i love that shop as the clothes they sell are quite oriental.

went to coffeebean to chill out and rest our 'sour' legs and xiaobai's 'sour' eyes while waitg for clift to txt me. sat there for like 2hours plus i guess, then i buay tahan, txt alan to ask if clift's going (as i think he's busy, didnt reply me) to his office and whether can i go over relax first. juz nice, clift called and.... took cab down. dun wan take bus coz very lazy. introduced fiffy and alan to xiaobai.

so.. all was good and nice. hehe. had the wanton mee which i used to eat during ymca days. ok lah.. very filling. =P

hohoho, cat's bACK!!! yay!!!! didnt know that it'll take 1 week plus to reach SG on a cargo ship.. hmmmm. interesting.

went for late night dinner w/ alan, fify, gale (finally found out d spelling of her name!), jacky and... clift! hehe. thought his dinner will end late with drinking and such, ended up nope!! ate at 'Tian Tian Steamboat', the food and the soup base is not bad. at least.. it's cheaper than coca steamboat.. hehe.

oh well, nothing to add at the moment. meeting xiaobai 3pm at bugis~~~ told boss that i'm leaving early today and he said ok! YAY!

hope to meet clift today, if he can leave earlier like last night but mayb its alittle impossible. hmmm.

added new link under 'Links':Love Airways

omg! time passed so fast that its already 6.30pm! to think i still thought it was like.... 4pm? stepped in and time practically flew-ed~*

mayb coz weekends din come in, so monday had alot of things waiting for me to update. which is good, i think i should do that more often. weekends rest and monday - VIOLA~~~* whole bunch of work awaiting for me. hahahah.

oh well, nothing much.. hehe.. except that... clift's back early today.. sigh. why never tell me.. then i could have go and spy on him.. see got ugly bing lang mei w/ him or not. =P

actually, last night while checking on the flights which he would be able to take.. saw one transit and was thinking 'aiya, can skip that one coz its a transit from LA to taipei to Sing'. ended up, he ACUTALLY took that flight back home!!!! wasted but get to see him.. very nice of him to do that for me.. hehe. shouldnt do everytime, to keep that feeling of surprise-ness special. ^.^

d good thing about living so near. and how nice, san juz told me sth.. which i'd actually thought about it before~! feeling very excited about it and cant wait for it to happen. :D

oh! did i mention that san owe me a dinner treat? for guessing an item correctly. HAHAHAHAH!

updates of today first.. managed to edit all the pics including the old ones taken during Mooncake Festival @ the Chinese Garden.

well, i overslept.. 1st day of AV tends to makes one feel very tired. luckily enough for me, my cramp camp in d middle of the night and thankfully, i was well prepared (w/ the night pads n such) so.. juz alil on off sleep pattern and everything went smooth.

took cab over to toa payoh to meet xiaobai, jw w/ ruyi (didnt know aloe vera was called ruyi in mandarin. xiaobai told me de) and annkia w/ yanling. so its lik 3 couples. more like 2 couples + 1 "couple". ya, me n xiaobai play couple (juz kidding. hahah but in the outsider pov, it may look lik it and they'll think, "Good match! both fair fair, 1 tall 1 short. LOL!)

shall skip the food part as by the time 3/4 of the food were served and finished, then i remembered about taking pics of our filling breakfast. ate till 12pm+. so its like our brunch. (breakfast + lunch)

after that, we went to watch Covenant which was ok lah. abit of a crap. juz nice! claire txted me that he'd juz watched that show while i was having my singing session.

so, today was more lik a first time for everything.

1st time for Breakfast at 10am.
1st time for Movie in the daytime. (its lik 120pm show and there's not many people!)
1st time for KTV session.
1st time for 10hrs of staying outside w/ the gang.

(psss: oh, jw n gf left after the show..)

juz nice, after ktv it was lik 8pm. headed off to cuppage for makan and went home as annkia was tired, me too.. cramp was lik a on/off kinda thingy and the more i sit, the more tiring my back felt.







XXXXXXX *chuuuuuu*

there was another pic, funny pic between us but din put it up because it was kinda blurish and its not nice.... hehe. i did photo edit on my nose coz.. there was a BIG pimple there and it doesnt look good.. apart from that, i didnt really do much edition on my face lah. u know right?? haha. me = genuine good hor!!!!







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xiaobai said he's like my part time.. coz clift wasnt in sg then he accompany me. hAHAHAH! ok lah, foc mah. (juz kidding) since he's d only who's d most free.. so jio him out lor. cat's still not back yet... claire ah.. forget it bah. w/ his tests and work, i dont think he has much time for me as he need to accompany his gf. and i dun wanna drown myself in work.. mayb jio serge n wife out for makan one day!

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juz bought this pair of sandals as my other one was... dying. need to send it to the shoeshop for repair. wasted leh, not even 1yr and the sole popped out le.



the toy that clift got for me from HK. cute huh? love it and abit bu ser de to open the plastic cover....



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my chinese garden trip! first time went there... kinda exciting but there's alot of prcs.. sianz 1/2. adrian and claire came along w/ meeeeee.



the entrance



claire n adrian too excited, cant wait to go in..

suggested buying lanterns for us to walk and hold around (muz get into the atmosphere n mood mah). thou adrian was VERY reluctant to carry one around and was FORCED by me to hold one.. so i asked him to strike one angry look w/ his lantern. hehe



d art of er... well, using d lantern.





thanks to our model = claire who did the lanterns for us while i stand there snapping pics and adrian strike pose.

tada!!! our lanterns w/ d owners.. see i so good! bo put the remark on claire. coz he was saying that i'll sure say "CLaire ah, the biggest in size and also d one w/ the biggest lantern!". BUT i didnt put that in the pics!! hehe. i very good hor? =P



some of the decos we saw. we practically walked the whole of Chinese Garden! not bad hor??







saw this very unique "lantern deco" which was made up of plates, saucers, cups, etc..



saw this very 'out of place' stage w/ funny event. most of the people taking part are PRCs i think.



saw this sort of tower lik (there are two in fact! we went to one only thou w/ the better view!)



a very steady adrian strike pose! hahaha. out w/ me too long le, now very smooth when striking pose hor? =P



saw the bridge there and wanted to take it. after numerous nos of failed attempts... we finally capture one .. very decent one.



going down and out.. see.. very winding hor? tell u one secret... claire actually having abit of difficulty going down.. coz the stairs too narrow for him le.. hehehe.



came upon another place, nice de. behind us was the turtle pond. very smelly.



now alot of me in photos hor? coz i made d comment tht i was d photographer mah, so seldom m in d pix.. so they said lor and made me go take pic... =P



nearly finishing our walk... came upon this pond and i tot it'll b cool if they take pic there and dont face d camera. like they are admiring the moon (its full moon i think) and enjoying their poetry chats. (poetry=fake lah.. juz making a statement only... lik those 'gu dai' thingy where they always talk w/ poems kinda thingy?) v steady hor? see, adrian strikes another pose yet again. actually i think he's not pointing anything in particular but juz to make me happy only lah. HAHAHAH. thanks dear. u are the BEST!!! =P



ending and were resting (sort of). saw these few ppl up there sitting lidat.. macham they wanna commit suicide.. but i think they'll fail horribly and ended up w/ broken limbs only.



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oh well, thats about it. going to sleep soon..

juz realised some things... and dunno should i be happy or not. mayb in between bah..

im an attention seeker.. so if u pay me more attention, i'll give u more of my attention. some ppl realised that and are making use of that.

how can u not think too much when things juz add up and u'll juz cant help it but to think about it leh?

thanks to jaja, for being concern. ^^
JIAYOU ok? im behind u for your studies!

oh yah!! found out one thing.... xiaobai's hands... ARE SO SMALL!! hahahahha!

took some screenshots today when i have the chance to go online and play ff. saw the items that uncle had gotten for me. omg.. so many of them!! thanks uncle!!! ;D

saw the hat that i wanted to get that night but coz dajie wanted to use the pc for her project, i dun have the chance to do so and that happened to be the last night for the event! >.
wonder how long did uncle take to get all the items man..... >.<


my so 'witchy' hat!

initially wanted to go and lvl my char and soon bian help kei get her lvl back. saw vivi online!! he was lv 60 dragoon and i thought of asking him to party together. ended up, he was tired of doing experienced points party as he had been chionging level w/ one of the guild members. so, changed of plan. we went to skillup our weapons and at the same time, level up our npc.

i was afk (away from keyboard) then.. to eat ice cream. :D
the rest went to strike some pose by acting cool, sitting behind. -.-"



were fighting in an area and there was this group of prc farmers with rather funny names.. lik 'good luck come', 'phamplet', etc. we made up some stories to entertain ourselves when one of them came over to 'check' on me.


poor vi, he was used .. as the guy w/ 2 girls fightg over him. HAHAHAHHA.

later, some notorious monster popped!! WTF?! ended up, i was spotted after it had pawned kei... died x1. lost 600exp!



got raised and who knows.. dragon returned again after 'petrolling' one round.... juz nice, vi was saying 'we gotta escape, NOW!'. i was scrolling to the spell halfway.. who knows.. i was the first to be attacked. WAH PIANG! i suspect it muz b the flower (on my head)... mayb dragon jealous. hahahah! vi unable to control 2 chars at the same time, so he sacrificed karluo instead. =P



kei raised karluo first so that after she raised me, i could cast 'escape' straightaway. while waiting for her mp (mana) to get regen and also for the spell to be ready to be cast, vi went to make karluo sit on me. -.-"
thats not the first time already. 1st was his fat elvaan who sat on MY HEAD, now its d lighter one. great.




saw this cute couple some days back when i went to find my 'bf' aka my npc to talk to him. haha, we need to 'pei yang' feeling de ok!



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well... a friend was telling me.. to enjoy that feeling now and dont stress ownself too much over it. dont think too much. trying to do so. ^^

cant expect too much right?

our steamboat dinner at coca last night.





well, we didnt have time to take pics of our vegetables as the waitress was putting them all into the pot to boil.

we were sitting between 2 tables of japanese. 1 was a modern married couple, d other was a family w/ a lil son, kinda cute one. and no... im not thinking of having a baby yet, stop giving me that look.

anyway, had juz made up my mind on should i do something that i am comfortable in and b stucked there or try something different and b exposed. anyway, if im still not comfortable about it, i can juz quit anytime. gonna shop for clothes real soon. been spending too much, gotta take note of my finances soon. christmas is coming = more spending. >.<

darling, where's my monthly expenses as promised by u? *evil smile*

whoops! my mac's delivery's here!!! yummy-licioussssss Mac Chicken burger w/ fries and sprite!!!!!!

hehe... juz saw my tagboard and was VERY happy!

cant help but to keep smiling to myself... =P

been bz for the past few days so couldnt blog as by the time i was back home, it was quite late and i was too tired to update.

Wednesday 01/11/06 went to meet alson for dinner as clift had some appointment. co's having event at dbl o and i decided to skip it.. ate at Five Star Chicken Rice along Bukit Timah Road. it has been some time since i last went there to eat. it was delicious as usual and i finally learnt the name of the vegetable which i like to order. it was 'Xiao Bai Chye'. yummylicious! had the fried you tiao and a place of white chicken. hehe, yum yum~!

after that, i requested to go Jurong Hill (Yep! My fave hill!) but after seeing that look on alson's face, i had to think of another place to go as he works near there and it was lik going back to his workplace again. haha. so decided to go Labrador Park coz of the secret tunnel! thou i know it'll be close by that time but i juz wanna have a look at it. went there and yes, he was forced to walk (hey, only a short distance only ok!!) and who knows! there was another level up and you have to walk this super long staircase where it doesnt go straight up but the kind that gose left and right. but alson dun wan to climb the stiars... so i suggested driving up there which he did. walked over alil and saw my tunnel! weeeee... its so antique, i like it! (i shld b a historian man!) wanted to go further up the road as stated in the map to see the old fort gate but that idiot die die dun wanna go up. the first time, i gotta drag him up you know?!?! so after a long debate, i gave in (i dun wan him to drive off and leave me straining there right? ((which i know he wouldn't do that))) sat in his car as i showed him the new magazine and he read through it before dropping me off at Dbl O. yes, decided to go there coz i missed somebody.

Who knows, i queued and the lady stopped me because 'no sandals are allowed in the bar'. -.-"
ok, nevermind. clift brought san's sandals down for me and he went off. 2nd time, lady said she need to keep my sandals. abit sian liao and was startg to feel alil irritated. so told clift to collect san's sandals and if he cant go off, i'll just go home. ended up, san contacted someone there and i was let in... there's no such thing as freebies you know.. i had to give the guy (who helped me) a blowjob..... ordered x2 and the guy, knowned as gary, demostrated it for me as its my virgin blowjob... you have to use your mouth to topple the glass over = drink will land IN your mouth. its quite a small cup w/ d opening juz right for your mouth to fully cover it. NO HANDS are allowed! blowjob = use mouth... isnt that obvious? was feeling very awkward and the whole experience was new to me.. but i guess, after awhile, i'll get used to it sooner or later. did my very FIRST blowjob right there in that pub.

how did it taste? surprisingly, it was very sweet which kinda killed the bitter taste of the alcohol below. but as its a one shot kinda thingy, so your throat will feel kinda burnt(?) but after the 2nd time, my throat somehow gotten used to it and it doesnt feel that bad anymore. in fact, i think i quite lik that drink!

cant really say im having fun there and before we left, bart sabo-ed me w/ a drink. i think it's ribena xxx coz it tasted like one w/ the alcohol. no.. not in a mug or something but its in syringe form. ya, they inject that alcohol into your tongue. ok, no. no needles. they juz pushed the top and the liquid will go into your mouth. juz wait till d syringe is emptied then you finished all in one shot. yes, another new experience.

get to experience quite alot of things for the past few days while working but am quite in a bit of a dilemma. and its driving me crazy over it. yes, the experiences are great but.. i dont quite like the other half that im supposed to face.

Thursday 02/11/06 sigh, clift's going to taiwan and of all timing, he took the earliest one, which was 8am.. so i cant go and see him off... haiz. it was an EXTREMELY busy day for me and i wasnt able to finish my work by the time i have to leave for my jp's class. thankfully, lilian (as usual) accompanied me while i ate my dinner @ delifrance as mac was closed for renovations. heng, if not for her, i guess i wun be eatg dinner at all. yes, i HATE eating alone as its super boring.

went for class and OMFG! the class was fun except this stupid fella just have to spoil it! you know the kind of people who breathes deeply w/ that disgusting sound when they have a nose full of xxx(wots the word for the liquid in your nose when u are having flu?). anyway, he kept doing that for the whole of TWO FRIKKING HOURS!!! wah lau! i wish i could have SLAPPED HIM HARD! so bo bian, had to lun not abit but ALOT!

returned to office after my class to finish up my stuffs which took 4hrs.. and yes, i went off around 1am...

before that, during the day, i was out in bras basah to buy envelopes (400 of them ok! imagine how heavy it was) and was heading for the post office to buy stamps, the rain began to rain heavily (it was drizzling before that.. well, raining with bigger droplets). how the fuk i get back to my office? drop an sms to san and she asked me to call bart to get an umbrella for me as she had to go off for an appointment. during then, i realised how unhelpful and SELFISH people can get. they saw me strained at one point with TWO heavy plastic bags and stucked there without an umbrella, they DIDNT offer to help me. i mean, you dont have to carry my stuffs for me but at least, LEND ME a space under your umbrella, a shelter back to my office. it wouldnt hurt to help right? how disappointing.. if its me, i'll DEFINITELY offer to help that person be it a girl or a boy.. better if its a cute guy lah! hahahahah!

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today leh, busy as usual because due to last night stuffs, i have not done my own things and gotta finish it before it began to rollover and become a katamari~~*

met up with 2 of xiaobai's friends, lynette and roxanne. hmmm, dunno if my observation is correct or not, but i realised that lynette (if i din remember wrongly) is more of the soft spoken and gentle type. quite like talking to her (i think i prefer gentle people) and was quite comfortable chatting w/ her. roxanne, is more of the loud and outgoing type. yes, the opposite of lynette. she's very confident and its quite challenging talking to her. thou they are quite young but they have been out working for quite some time and have more or less experience things that are still new to me. am quite interested to know more.

but i was glad to have meet them because... it set my mind thinking about the same topic again... and i think, i need to live and work in my toilet. because that's where most of my thoughts and ideas and everything comes from... disgusting hor?

each part has its pros and cons... if you wanna move up, you need to do this and that and that.. and in return, u'll gain status and earn most $$ than most people.

if you dont, you'll be stucked at one place, doing the same thing over and over again and your $ juz stay where it was. but... at least you dont have to pretend.

still thinking... still thinking.. part of me wanna do what i like but part of me wanna try and strive for something.. but im not sure whether will i be able to handle it or not. ARGH!