Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year!

And so, we had shifted out of my old house on the 7th Dec. Felt kinda sad to be moving out after staying in this house for so many years, with so many memories. It stored so much more memories than my old house in Upper East Coast,  when we shifted out 5 years back due to my parents separation.

As the new house is not ready, I had made preparations to get a temporary lodging months back. I am not the sort who like to do last minute  preparations for something as important as this. Yes, if it is something minor, then I will do it at the last minute but not something like this. I really can't wait for the new house to be ready so that I can move in and hopefully not having to move out until 5 years later, when I can get my own house. Of course, provided the housing price will decrease and not increase.

I realised that for the past 10 years, I had moved around quite a bit. Some was out of my own accord and which I must admit,  is something not many people around me can experience the feeling of staying at certain places. It was quite an experience and I am glad that I had that.

Anyway, I kept Friday to pack my whole room and it took longer than expected. Perhaps I had more items now than I use to have. :/

So this is how it looked like while I was still in the midst of packing on Friday.

And how it looked like on Saturday after the movers came to move my mattress and drawers.

And after sending most of the boxes to the temporary lodging.

It definitely felt weird, to be sleeping in the room, knowing for the fact that I will be sleeping there for the last time. That it is my last night. Threw plenty of stuffs and still have many to keep in the storage. Things that I cannot bear to throw, have to go by forcing myself to ask internally "ever look at them for the past year? If your answer is no, throw."

No more drive-thru for McDonalds and KFC. Sigh.

And...... while packing.... someone dropped my piggy bank. He had followed me since my poly days until now, which is almost 10 years! Felt very sad. First sadness was the moving, next was because my new house is not ready yet, thirdly was this, piggy broke. You know, it all felt like some bad omen.

Made 3 trips back and forth from my old house to the temporary place to move my items. Regretted not accepting help from my friends when they offered.. which I will most definitely ask them for help when my new house is ready!

Guess one of the boxes was to heavy, tried to put it down and my thigh was to near the plastic box that it scratched a little bit of the skin off. It still hurts now and is still trying to heal. I guess it will take a long time for I do not have the aloe vera cream with me. I find that cream the most effective cream for they heal wounds like that very fast.

It was a very tiring weekend for me. Saturday to pack the remaining, bringing them over to the temporary place, unpacking them, making trips to ikea to buy some necessities, had dinner and finally home to rest.

And another trip to iKea on Sunday to buy the remaining items and did Christmas shopping in Orchard. So tiring man. Haven't had a good rest and back to work on Monday. Sigh...

Glad to have my last day of leave today. Well, I was supposed to meet up with my 'Family' but father have to stay home and look after his wife. We all insisted on that for we know that he also will not have a peace of mind even if he's out with us and leaving her alone at home.

Anyway, today is the 10th, another 21 days to the end of the month, the mark of the new year, 2014. My wish is to make the best of the remaining days an enjoyable one, a memorable one and to end things on a good note then welcome the new year with a new start. :)

How about you? How have you been doing? How do you plan to end 2013? If you have not make any plans yet, how about setting a day for your family and have a nice dinner with them if you have not done so? Meeting all your close friends whom you have not meet up for months? Been wanting to start / finish something but haven't have the time to do so? How about making time to do it?

Wishing everyone Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!

What do you want in a relationship?

Somehow I realised that my blog has been full of relationship related posts and there weren't many happy posts or happening posts. I guess it all became like that after I realised that someone undesirable was reading my blog after that incident happened... in May. After which, I don't really like her looking at photos taken with my friends and all. I do wish I could write a post about her, attached with a photo just to let everyone know what she did. You did not see me posting, so it is not here.Yet. Perhaps I'll go through a higher profile post so that it gets wider coverage.

All that had happened, it is strange and difficult to comprehend why would someone finds pleasure in doing such things, knowing that it is all words only but still suck it all up and pretend that it is all happening? It is easy to put a test to see how much that someone means to that person.

I want to move on. And I guess it is about time for me to do something by the end of this year. I wish to start something new for 2014 as 2013 is bad enough. I hope I will be able to stand strong and stay firm by then. I'd forgiven and forget too many times but it just keeps happening again and again which makes it hard for me to forgive and forget anymore. The last time is the last straw but I do not wish to stay and see it happening again. God knows what I will do.

I also knows that there are people close to me, reading my posts as they are voices from my thoughts which I never really share with them. I am glad that they reads and do not confront me about it but still supporting me silently.

So, as my post reads "What do you want in a relationship?"

I once told someone what I want in a relationship but I guess it all but fell on deaf ears as that person will read only. Selective reading on top of that. So when I was talking about this, that person asked what do I want in a relationship then, I do not really want to tell as I know it will just be washed away.

I want to be able to have TRUST in a relationship. That means no lying in a relationship. No keeping things. Complete trust and faith.

I want to have a relationship where we can talk about anything under the sun. It can be small things like 'Hey, I just found this app/game." or it can be "my friends are planning a birthday event for a friend / Chinese New Year / Christmas event, we are thinking of doing this, this and that.". It can be anything that is happening right now. I guess it will lead to the next one.

I want both to be involve in each others lives and activities. When we are thinking of doing certain things, we will think of the other immediately.

I want to have a relationship where we can share about just anything which is similar to the part where I said we can talk about anything under the sun but this time is, we can share our personal thoughts and feelings with each other. Our plans.

I want to have a relationship where I can see us moving on to somewhere. It does not necessary have to lead to marriage but it can lead to a relationship where I know it will  be the last one, a relationship which is rock solid, which will lasts.

Just more disappointments than happy memories. Why did it all start? Why did I not protest and go with what was planned initially? Why did I not stop myself then? Perhaps it will not happen at all. Then perhaps I will be feeling quite the opposite of what I am feeling right now.

Why?

How do you close a healing wound that keeps opening up?

How do you give trust to someone who wants you to give them complete trust and yet, feeds you with lies all the time?

Why someone said things out of convenience just so to put a closure to something quickly without resolving it?

How can a person not shed a tear after having faced with so many blows and still stands, still giving the same amount and not falter a bit? Is that person stupid? Or just too nice? Or just too naive to think that someone will change for the person?

Being too optimistic is not a good thing. Perhaps that naive person ought to start looking out for themselves and give less.

I think the person should stand firm and treat own self good instead of the other way round.

Why someone can lie so much out of convenience?

Why can't someone take others feelings into consideration for once?

Why is there such a selfish someone?

It all boils down to fate.

I had just attended a wedding, a couple whom I am close with.

How they met, how their friendship blossomed into a relationship, how they managed through it for 4 years, I still believe that it was fate that brought them together.

Fate plays a part in bringing two person together and the rest will be up to the couple on how do they want to continue on from there.

It was sweet and they are really a match for each other. As much as there are ups and downs, they still make it through all these years.

Being involve in each other's lives, respecting one another, being happy, being one another's pillar of strength, saving all the sweet nothings for no one but between the two of them and be each other's travel partner.

Capturing all the moments, even small moments be it when eating, walking, shopping or even at home with camera.

Is it important to put photos taken together as your wallpaper on your phone, computer or as your display picture for your facebook, whatsapp, twitter, etc?

How about if you put it but it doesn't mean anything to you? Or you place it when it means something to you? Such as a trophy photo to show others that you are proud of being with that someone else? To tell the other genders that you are happy in a relationship and do not need other attention from them? To see the photo when you misses them, when you are feeling down and need a smile on your face by looking at the photo or when you are feeling angry at something and needed something to keep you calm?

A song for all couples out there. If you are ever thinking that things are not working out for you, perhaps you should take some time to think about why are you together with your partner in the first place.

For friends, why or what brought you two together out of the many others and to share that special moment, that special friendship.

For family, why do you have such siblings that you can share your happiness, sadness and life with.

妈妈还是最伟大！

Oh yah, these topics had skipped my mind while I was doing the previous post.

I think a mom is very 伟大. Like my mommy, she is damn powerful. She can take  care of her naughty grandson the whole day and still prepare dinner for us with him fighting for her attention. Even when she wasn't feeling well, she also managed to have the energy to look after him. On top of that, during weekends during her rest day, she will do the housework. Who dare to complain their job is tiring and tough? I think mommy's job is the toughest.

Waking up at 4am to make breakfast for dajie and mei. 8am wake up again to look after her grandson until dajie is back.. Which varies between 6 to 8pm, sometimes go marketing, carrying baby in one hand and groceries in the other. Which I'd tried and couldn't last all the way till I'm home, cooks dinner. After that then she will have her own time to read her book, watch youtube, surf the internet. If grandson is sick, even worse. He will get cranky and mommy will help dajie to look after him. Over the weekends, she will clean the house and sometimes she will prepare dinner. Did I mention that she has to do the laundry for the members living in the house? Except for mine as I do my own laundry.

Dajie also another mommy I felt really 佩服 and is definitely not something I can do nor sacrifice for. She's now pregnant with her second kid, has to work from 7.30am and if she's too busy, she will only reach home around 9pm. Back home, she must play with her son, put him to sleep and he doesn't sleep easily. Tiring can????

Ok... Moving on to another topic. When a couple are together for some time, and felt that their relationship is a little stale.. Do they try to do something to improve things? Which definitely takes efforts from both parties or do they felt tired after doing so and began the next option - turning their attention to another person of the opposite gender and perhaps, toy with the idea of maybe leave their current partner for someone new? Then the vicious cycle begins again.

Why is it that there are couples who fought so hard just to stay together and couldn't be together because of their religion differences while others who got it easy and still break up just because they are bored of the relationship? Just because they had it too easily that they were unable to treasure each other?

Spoilt for Choice! Yummy!!

YES!!!!!!! Did not expect K to buy so much for me during his trip back to Thailand. I asked him to buy the squid flavour Lay if possible and was expecting just two packs... and when I finally received them (no thanks to Mr L for keeping it so long with him), I was speechless.

I felt like I was taking the snacks out from Doremon's pouch and not from the seemingly small plastic bag! I had tried the squid flavour seaweed on the bottom right (yellow packaging). It was so damn delicious that I could have open another pack and finish the rest off, if not for my high level of self control. I have a very weak spot for snacks and if I am to finish them all, I will have sore throat by tomorrow.

Ahhhh THANK YOU K!!!!

It was good seeing K and have a last minute dinner plan. I had suggested Lao Pa Sat but luckily L remembered that it was under renovation, so we went to Tom Yum Kung Fu at boat quay instead for moooooooookata!! It has been such a long time since I last saw his little girl and the last time I saw her was when she was still a few months old and now... Time flies. She responds to actions and words and could muttered a few herself. She is already 13 months old! It was nice that she let me carry her without crying, played with me and shared her food with me! Haha. So cute!!!

Felt bad that he had to send us all home, me especially since I was the only one who lived in the east.

Anyway I am hooked onto my mobile game - Plants vs Zombie II! Completed the three stages and now, I am trying to collect stars for my Wild Wild West map before heading off into the unknown. :D

Brainsssssssssssss!!!!!

Last week, everyone at home was feeling sick, mommy was coughing with sore throat. Mei and I were free that weekend and we decided to cook dinner! We planned our day nicely. I wanted to shop for tops for yoga, do mani and pedi with mei, do grocery for dinner, have lunch outside, buy facial products.. we managed to do all except for our nails. Guess I had underestimated the place I went to once.. It was packed until 4pm.. which we would  have to return home by then and prepare our dinner and me, playing my Fables III. :(

It was our first time brewing this snow pear, supposedly good for those who are feeling heaty, having dry cough or sore throat. And it was good for our lungs.. that's what I read online. We found the recipe online and tried brewing that.

Mommy said it was good and her throat felt better after having two rounds of it. And her cough actually went away the next day! YAY!

 

So... forgetting that there are heaty people in the house... I fried some chips myself.. Haha. It was really good and I want  to do that again one day!

Missing Japan

Wanted to typ something but couldn't find the inspiration to type anything out.

I was watching the Music Station and listening to those Japanese songs and watching the Japanese talking about the songs, looking at the background really brought back those memories I had during my trip to Japan with TP.

I had said it a thousand times and I will still say it again. I really misses Japan and had thoroughly enjoyed myself there. When can I do it again? When can I go back to Japan again?

I missed walking there during the day and night.. Climbing those mountains, eating the food, the people, the feel of Japan.

My next destination to cover in Japan will be Hokkaido, then Okinawa and back to Central Japan. Covering those rural areas. Sigh....









Anyway, when one said to start something all over again, that would mean, restart like a game. Where places you'd covered, interact, everything will start anew. History cannot be erase, but can be forgotten in a sense that you don't have to think about it.

It was really silly of me to let someone who could perhaps, be so persistent to contact someone, hoping that person will respond to them. And that could lead to something unpleasant.

A Failing Relationship is like a Withering Flower

We celebrated Jeremy's birthday last Saturday and coincidentally, there were fireworks from the rally right in front of his house.

There was the rojak station and the prawn noodles station - Jeremy prepared the soup base. Both were yummy especially the prawn noodles.

To me, having my partner participating in these kind of family events are important to me. Likewise, if he has some events of his own and wants me to join in, I will.

Anyway the above picture reminded me of the mob in Final Fantasy XI. Kind of missed sitting on the chocobo and running around fighting with Master Keigo as my tour guide. I must admit, Final Fantasy XIV is quite a letdown. :(

Saw this article about an advice from a divorced man after 16 years of marriage.

And I said that love won't last forever.

Why not?

Because if there is no effort on making it last, no effort from both to make things work, how can love last on it's on? Like a flower. It won't continue blooming once you stop watering it.

I do agree with all his points, except that those points do not come from just the guy only but the other partner and I strongly agree with being transparent with each other, sharing their fears and their feelings instead of keeping things.

Read on:

http://jamesrusselllingerfelt.wordpress.com/2013/08/15/beautiful-advice-from-a-divorced-man-after-37-years-of-marriage/

Taking Things for Granted

So I saw and watched this video on Facebook and it got me thinking, sure enough, there are different stages in a relationship and it can make or break one. Especially after the honeymoon period ends and a couple gets too comfortable with each other that they tends to take things for granted.

I can't speak for all but these are just purely what I think and how I feel.

The feeling one gets during the chase be it the receiving end or the chaser, is always the most exciting and interesting part because that is when the two person will do the cha-cha dance. Moving back and forth, flirting with one another. Trying to know and understand the other party from their characters to habits to the food/drink they like.

Once they are both walking the same path and decided to be together, that is where the honeymoon starts. Honeymoon, well, is like a continuation from the courting stage just that instead of 'Single", their status changed to "In a Relationship". That is the point where the couple are totally oblivious to their partner's bad habits, any negative characters, etc because they are too blinded being in love with one another, enjoying the moments they are having now. For some, their honeymoon can last for a few months, years or otherwise, just days and weeks.

Once that honeymoon period dies down, they will shift to the comfortable stage or rather, for some is the 'boring' stage where they cannot find anything to do together. Or so, they thought. They just felt that they had explored everything together and there is nothing else to learn about one another, every malls explored, there is nothing else to do. Life with each other is just beginning to get boring. Either one or both will want some excitement and unfortunately, that cannot be found on their other half or just does not include/involve the other half. That is when one started to stop seeing the other half so often and spend more time either alone or with friends and is beginning to open up their options. It may go to the extend where the 'blinded' starts to open and sees all the bad habits and stuffs that they do not mind initially and began to wonder, WHY? Why is he/she like this? Why is he/she like that? Why is he/she so fat? Why he/she has bad breath? Why didn't I notice earlier? Why? Etc... And soon, they will start picking fight over the slightest matters with one and other. They can get really irritated with one another, the tolerance level just went down rapidly. And so, that's when the unhappiness overtake the happy moments completely. They will forget the initial WHY were they attracted to each other in the first place? After the whole relationship just went downhill, all the constant fighting, the seeing each other less, one would eventually think about this "Breakup". This relationship can't work anymore. I don't love him/her anymore. I'll be happier without him/her. And so, it happened. Sometimes it may change things for the better, like taking time being away from one another to realise that they actually misses each other and still wants to enjoy each other's company. Sometimes, one of them or both might just move on with their lives.

Personally, I feel that breaking up is the easiest way out. It is just walking out of a relationship that one did not try hard enough to salvage it or perhaps, felt that one had done enough and the result is still the same, might as well not waste each other's time and move on. However, how hard did one try? Was it a half-hearted effort or a hundred percent effort? As long as one of the put in a half-hearted effort, it will not yield any results. Relationship remains status quo and eventually still leads to breakup.

It is easy to take certain things for granted. Like if your partner has always been really sweet by buying lunch/little things on certain days to cheer you up or to make you happy, one who does not reflect on that will take it for granted and sometimes may felt irritated that why is he/she wasting time or spending money on things that they do not need? If need be, might as well spend it on better/bigger things? Or sometimes a partner who tolerate the other half temper/behaviour/etc doesn't mean they can do it all the time and their partner will forgive/tolerate them forever. It will come to a point where their rubber band is fully stretch and once they snap.. well, if you are able to put a rubber band together again.

One ought to look back occasionally, think and try to improve the relationship between themselves instead of getting comfortable and start taking things for granted.

So before one says the word 'Breakup', perhaps one should set it as a rule in a relationship. No breakup and resolve whatever conflicts before the night ends. That is just an example.

Unless they really do not feel the love for each other anymore, then yes, it is time to make the exit.

How does one know they do not feel anything for each other? Do they have to wait until they spend some time away from each other then they will know? Or when they start flirting with other people and realised that at the end of the day, it is their partner whom they wish to return to?

A relationship requires a lot of work. Like in the video, being in one can either lead to breakup or marriage. While you are with your partner, what do you look for in the relationship? Where do you see yourself in it? Does discussing about this with your partner helps to determine how the relationship will grow? Of course for many, especially the young ones, they do not think that far. For now, they will want to enjoy each other's company first. I guess, when it reaches a certain period, then one will most probably think about where to take the relationship to. Whether will one wish to stay in a serious and long term relationship with the current partner and after X number of months/years, then they will wish to settle down. Or they just want to walk and think about the next step tomorrow. However if after an X period of time and there is no changes in the relationship, perhaps they need to talk about it.

Happy National Day 2013!

It was an unplanned event as we were all rushing to go home before the NDP ends around 8.30pm. However, we felt that the crowd will still be there even if we get to leave before that timing as there were a lot of people around and there was a day event just along the Promontory. A handful of us, Mr Teng, 小黑, Ah Keong, Zam and I decided to head to Harry's opposite for a drink.... As expected, the place was full. We ended up buying a dozen of Heineken's and walked to the river to watch the fireworks. It was quite a sight and it lighted up the skies once, paused and the second time. After awhile, the third and finally the fourth. :)

I guess nothing beats watching fireworks live as compared on tv. The best fireworks viewing was sitting on the ground and looking up that it almost felt like the fireworks were just right above you!

I managed to take a video of the last fireworks. Enjoy.

Today, or rather, on Sunday, 11th of August, we decided to meet in the morning for McDonalds breakfast. After which, we went to Cold Storage to buy our ingredients and food needed to prepare for dinner at dajie's. So mei prepared the seasoning and inform us or rather, Jer what/how to cook the food based on the cookbook I had prepared for the food spread as well as washing the vegetables while I do the cutting of the meat, vegetables, etc and placed them together. It was a three men team and it was great. Some family bonding time. :)

Which has been some time since I last spent some time with my family. This time, Jer's dad and grandma joined us for dinner. I am planning to cook next Sunday again!

What's on menu?

Stir-Fried French Beans, Japanese Chicken Wings and Omelette with Onions.

There was soup as well. Vegetarian Shark's Fin Soup.. however I did not manage to take any proper photos of the dishes as it was late already and everyone was hungry, especially the plus 2.

All the cutting = bruise on finger. However it was worth it! :)

Fun family time > minor bruise

This shall be a short post as I need to go rest. It is 00:38hr now and I'm meeting Cass for yoga tomorrow at 7.15am! :)

I was going to end this post however this beautiful song stopped me in my tracks and listened to the full piece. Also dedicated for the man in this video.... it is a pity...

Bleh, after I'd published this post, yet another song popped and is a song I love by the King of Pop! I really like him and respect MJ because he used his popularity to influence his fans to make the change, for the better. To respect one another, not to divide human by their colour, to save the earth, to prevent war, etc. Basically, to make the world a better place.

Enjoy the one by Glee casts.









And ... O-M-G!! This guy is just too cute! Time to watch Glee again!

I pray that everything will turn out for the better and this will be the last time ever.

Family Bonding :)

I suddenly have the strong urge to go to dajie's place and cook. Maybe because she has a nice kitchen with an island counter. I wanted to cook Chinese dishes initially, however feeling lazy, I decided to make do with steamboat instead. We headed off to the NTUC and bought food essential for steamboat. Yum yum!! Total cost was about $102 for a party of 5.

Preparing food for our steamboat. Dajie forgotten to power on the rice cooker and I happened to notice the rice cooker and switch it on. We had bought too much food and we managed to finished 80% of the food we had bought and prepared. Still have some leftovers, like the golden mushrooms, scallops, etc. It was yummy and I really missed times like this. Us, spending time together, having dinner together, etc as a family. I am looking forward to our next round at dajie's place. :)

Hope we can make it a weekly event eventhough it will be kind of difficult because everyone will have their own activities and sometimes even if we are free, dajie may not be. She will have to visit her in-laws, friends, etc. Maybe next time we can have a mini cousins gathering at dajie's place too.

In times like this, I really wish I have my own place. I will most prolly plan some lunch/dinner get-together with friends. Perhaps having friends to sleepover, movie marathon, games marathon, board games marathon, etc. As long as it's having fun with friends.

Of course, I would also wish that my partner would be participating these events actively with me. Be it spending time together with my family, his family or our friends. I like to be around people I like and I find it fun and it felt warm having friends I/he love so close around us be it an overnight chill out session, drinking session, etc. And having friends over means they do not have to worry about spending money to take cab home or can't drink too much for they are driving or staying out late and feeling too tired to drive. :)

Yummy mini dessert!!!!!!!!!

I love Sunshine, Sunflower, Dewberry and Banana!

I am so pampered by my pinoy friends! Now I have two more yummy snacks to add to my list of to buy! One of them is this! I am not a fan of peas however, apart from the Japanese snacks, this is another one where I just cannot stop eating! Perhaps that is why my pimples keep popping out!! :(

YUM YUM SUNSHINE! I still have two packs of Dewberry biscuits and 1 1/2 packets of Sunflower Crackers for me to enjoy. A friend will be going back to Philippines in September, time to write a list of yummies for her to buy back!

So I was have the 'cooking' mood and decided to come up with pasta. I was considering either linguine or penne although I wanted something different since it has always been either these or spaghetti. I looked up for recipes online and saw one of Jamie Oliver's online recipe where his pasta uses this - tagliatelle and taglierini and I went "!". I was lucky enough to be able to find tagliatelle as it was not easy. Hence I went to shop for my grocery and whipped up this meal for my family with some help of course! Overall taste was not too bad but I love the chicken best! Next round will be Chinese dishes!

Tagliatelle Carbonara with Sautéed Herb Chicken

It has been some time since I last post something about my fluffy friends who have been my constant and loyal companions. If you'd noticed, there is an addition to the family - Bunny! He is about 2 months old and they have warmed up to each other very quickly. I had neglected them again and I bet they must be feeling really happy when they had the front row seats watching me playing my games which I'd bought from xbox live arcade.

Cactuar, Hippo and Buddy decided to move to a corner and have some little chat of their own while I had moved on to watching movies. :)

Anyway, I was listening to the OST for Metal Gear and saw another nice OST!

Listening to this song reminded me of the time when I decided to try Halo ODST for the first time because of the coop option.

I have heard of the game Halo however I did not really check out the story for I was not that interested about it that time. My mind changed after I'd played ODST for the first time and asked many questions about the story, about Master Chief. Who is he? Why is he alone? etc. As ODST really provide a good third party view about what happened to the destroyed city and following Master Chief's foot path. Sometimes it felt like I was so near him and yet I never get to see him. I went crazy after and decided to check out on the full story about Halo, even to the extend of buying up the novels to read. As much as I love the game Halo and its storyline, however I felt that the game, Halo Reach isn't as good as the few series by Bungie. Perhaps they made Master Chief and Cortana too... personal? Too close for comfort. That Master Chief and Cortana actually have feelings for each other? Or maybe because they are always together that they sort of, have some connections or bond?

Perhaps in my mind, I'd created the impression that Spartans are superhuman who do not have any emotions like us. Sure they feel sad for their fallen comrades, that is because they are like brothers and sisters in arms, but not because they feel .. something else towards each other. For them, yes sure, they will feel sad for their fellow soldiers who K.I.A but the feeling of dying due to something, like it is a duty to keep the planets and civilians safe not because they want to but they have to. However, they feel sad for second only and they will move on for they have more important things to focus on rather than feeling sad all the way. To them, they feel no fear. To them, they work around to bring the covenants down.

So, Reach is a disappointment to me. Master Chief is too emotional.

Anyway, I'd bumped onto this song too! OMG! It sure brings back memories. I could still remember playing this game on my PS1 and I loved the game so much although I did not complete this game.

I guess I prefer the older games because of the storyline. They seemed to carry more meaning than the new games. It was about friendship, betrayal, saving the earth, sacrifice, etc. Nothing fanciful but simple and straightforward story. I wish I could find a game that is like the old ones, where the games were more meaningful. Another game that I used to love. The conversations between characters are too meaningful, recruiting 108 characters to change the country. Sigh... Where to find a game like this now?

Enjoy this OST. :) Time to lookup on their games and stories to reminisce!

Stay Home Sunday

I was really glad that I stayed at home last Sunday instead of trying to go out again. It has been a really long time since I last stayed home on my day off. Thinking that I will save money if I don't go out was WRONG! I spent money at home.. on my xbox live account. Sigh.

Feeling really guilty everytime I looked at my xbox for I have not accompanied him for a really long time. I mean, I used to play with him almost on my every off day unless I'm going out. So I could almost feel him jumping in joy, beaming away his green light when I picked up my controller. Haha. We misses each other.

I had decided to renew my xbox Gold membership so that I could play online again and enjoy the perks again. Ok... I just missed being on the Gold account. I was hoping that Xbox will have the promotion for renewal programme just like what I'd gotten 3 years back where they offered a 3 years promotion for $X. It was really convenient and cheaper plus I do not have to renew it for 3 years! I removed my card details because I do not want Xbox to do the auto renewal in case they are having some good promotions for Gold membership.

Here comes my Gold Membership again!! Oh, this screen shot was taken with my Asus Transformer! Isn't that cool? Hell, it makes things going a lot easier for me now! :D

I also bought some points at the same time. I was calculating whether was it cheaper to buy more points or just what I need. In the end, I realised that they all costs the same. Perhaps the Xbox team might want to consider doing some promotion for buying more points instead of just making them cost all the same whether you buy 500 points only or 5000 points. Like some perks you know? Buying more points = buying more xbox arcade / Online games. Anyway, I went ahead and bought the 5000 points one because there are quite a number of arcade games I wanted to get.

So it was a good Sunday for me. Stayed home, relax and played games. Oh! And my mom gotten someone to paint the ceiling for they were peeling off like mad. So until now, the room still smell like it's been renovated, like fresh paint smell. :)

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Anyway, I was wondering, why do people say mean things to the person they care for the most and best part is, they do not mean it. It just spew out of their mouth.

Is it because they are being hurt and angry?

Why huh?

If someone mean to change, will they really change? Can they? Or was it just a temporary phase only and will return to their old self?

Do they mean it?

Or they stay because they feel comfortable only and nothing more?

So many uncertainties.

Please post something here.

It has been some time since I had last posted something here.

Because sometimes I do not feel like letting a particular person to read what is happening right now. If you have the ability, please go ahead and do what you have been doing, if you are able to achieve something, I'd applause you. For from the start, you should know what is going to happen.

I don't really care. And I hope that person will stop asking that someone to read my blog for if that someone wants to, they will read it religiously.

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Anyway, I had lunch at the Carousel, Royal Plaza @ Scotts. It was the Spanish fare until August. Didn't really like the food although my date seemed to enjoy it very much. It must be the prawns. Prawns jumping on the frying pan. Wish I took a video of the whole process. Anyway, it was quite disappointing for me. It must have been nearly 10 years since my first and only visit to the Carousel with dajie and her then-colleagues. I would say it was a pleasant memory and I wish it could stay that way. I remembered enjoying the company and the food, especially! I can't really say my company that day was a bad one but it was the food... Bleh. I would like to return for porridge at Goodwood Park Hotel and buffet at The Line again. Fond memories and Mr Tan made it so.


So, my date took some random photos of me and I had decided to post them up here. Don't really care if I look fat. Hah!


Which station should I attack?

Nope, not sleeping. Not yet.

Hmmmm... drink plain water. Good for my throat...

Can't eat much desserts. Sux big time.

I realise the desserts are quite limited there.. Or was it just me? Sure, there were a lot of cakes but.. maybe not quite what I'd expected?

Some of the places that I loved to go had become history because they were tainted by someone. Damn. I should be glad that I kept some of my favourite to-go places a secret where it will be visited only by me and my special friend(s). Hell yeah!!!

Pretty sad that one particular place where Gabby brought me to... could not be revisited anymore for I must admit, the food there was quite good.

Damn. I shall just keep my special places all to myself and not share it with someone else for fear of 'pollution'.

Anyway I shall keep this short. For I still do not have the mood to type anymore here.

Should I just move my blog to another server?

F**k.
















Many times, I wish I could do something to that person.

Yet, sometimes I could be wondering what is that person thinking; feeling; doing?

Guess that is just me.

Weird.

Crazy.

I just wish that person will stop reading my blog one day.

CAN YOU DO THAT?

CAN YOU STOP READING MY BLOG?

JUST.STOP.READING?









Or do I have to spell you out?

Beachy time!

I was glad to have indirectly arranged the meet up because I felt that it has been quite a while since the group has their last meet up and the only time everyone could make it was on a special occasion. And I was glad that I could make it. It was really fun playing under the sun, getting burn (and feel the pain later. haha), getting tan and playing beach volleyball!!!!!!! It has been ages since I last played it.. that would be 4 years back? Haha. It is a pity that I did not get to play in the water, I would love to take a dip in the sea water. When a separate group asked us to join them while we were waiting for the rest to arrive, I was feeling very nervous because I am a NOOB and they were like, season players. My thoughts went: What if I screw up and made my team lose? What if I can't hit the ball? What if.... Many what ifs. I felt stress to perform and sometimes I couldn't 'feel' which direction is the ball coming. Will it be coming to my side? It was all good, they were really patient with me and I felt that I really sucked.

Frankly speaking, I felt really relieved when the rest arrived and our game was coming to an end soon. We played on our own and they were really really patient with me by letting me do a take 3 on serving the ball. Somehow no matter how hard I try, I couldn't get the ball over or it gets served over to the other side but it was all out of court. All in all, the event was quite fulfilling, I learned some things about volleyball and learned to serve although I need many more practices which means more beach outing!!

So many things I want to do. I want to hike again (missed the time where I hiked for 2 hours up a mountain in Japan), I want to bike around in Pulau Ubin again, I want to play badminton again, I want to play in the beach again.

 

Got burned on the day itself! Loving it!!! Now the skin is peeling and I wished my burns are on a more... easily accessible area so that I can peel them off!

 

Ate yummy ramen. It was a small shop just like those in Japan and I loved it! The place was quite similar to the one I had near the Gallery Hotel.

S was so sweet to have remembered my birthday and went to buy a gift for me during her trip to U.S.A!! I couldn't bear to use my two new gifts because I do not want to dirty it and such coincidence was, both gifts are from the same brand and are from two of the nicest people I love. This year would be my best birthday because I'd received gifts from the sweetest people as well as some taking time to celebrate with me! :)

 

I had a movie/supper date with D! Finally, after one year then we meet up and he still has the cheek to say our next meet up will be a year later, like some annual event. =.= So exclusive huh.

We went to watch 'Pee Mak'. I can't say I enjoyed the show because it was quite boring, although there were some funny parts. The ferris wheel scene would be the one that I paid quite a bit of attention to. Perhaps it was the music that caught my attention, meaningful lyrics that matches what the female character was feeling then or the dialogue between the two of them. That, no matter in life or death, their love towards each other was so strong that nothing can keep them apart. The character in the show was scared of ghosts, and when he saw her true self, he did not turn away, he did not exorcist her, he did not shun her because he loved her. Instead, he accepted her the way she was. It was quite touching.

 

Regrets.Opportunities

Before I continue typing contents that related to my subject, I realised that I have some photos that I have yet to post up here. Marking the end of any pending photos taken in 2012 that I have yet to upload here.

December 2012

We decided to have a Christmas dinner with mummy E. Initial choice was at Copthorne Waterfront, however we decided on Prego instead. I must admit that I did not know the Christmas menu was so expensive! The whole dinner for just the 4 of our (both mummies came and ate together instead) cost around $600!

Menu was totally changed with free flow of desert and appetizers.

Meat!!!

Very fresh oysters and prawns. Mummy E loves it!

 

Christmas dishes!

At the end of the dinner, there was this choir who came in, set up and started singing. It was really cute and made the whole place had the Christmas feel. What's missing was the crowd - it wasn't very crowded by the time we reached the destination and snow.

Well, that will be our first and last time having Christmas dinner at Prego except for normal occasion. I sure hope that Prego will be a place just for the two of us or with friends but not with any outsiders.

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January 2013

Finally I get to post some photos for this year and hope I will have the time to post 2013 photos by the end of the year instead of bringing it forward to the next year. Not forgetting to post the day's events instead of dragging it forward to the next few months and forgetting what actually happened.

Anyway I haven't been taking much photos now, except with the convenience of the camera that comes with our mobile phones. Sometimes it also makes uploading of photos into blog posts much easier and should I need to edit any of the photos, it will be done using 'Instagram' unless there's a need to remove certain bits of details. If you'd noticed, most of my photos that goes with my posts are quite updated now. :)

With the opening of the Gardens by the Bay, we decided to take a train over, have our lunch at Marina Bay Sands before walking over to the Gardens.

Taking the circle line to Bayfront. How convenient!

Lunch time at DTF!

There was an underground linkway from MBS to the Gardens. By the time we hit the other end, it was already raining. It wasn't a light rain nor a heavy one but one that is enough to soak you should you stay out long enough without shelter.

From where we were standing, we could see the Marina Bay Sands Hotel. I do wish to stay there for just a night!

The closest we managed to get to the Gardens is by looking from the shelter. We decided to head back because of the rain. It doesn't seem to be going away anytime soon and I guess no point walking in the rain while trying to enjoy the flowers and trees and having your camera soaked by the rain water.

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Back to my original post.

What is it about regrets and opportunities?

It can be anything small that does not really affect your life but it can be big enough to change your life.

Sometimes when one is given plenty of chances, one tend to take it for granted that the chance will still come and one will still have the option to choose whether to accept or to push it away, with the thinking that chance will come knocking on your door again.

However, that may not be the case. If one is being given too many chances, chance might stop showing itself one day and move on to the next person who will most likely appreciate it and accept chance with an open arms. That, will lead one to regret. Why didn't one accept the one chance of an opportunity? Why did one keeps pushing the many chances of opportunities away?

A person may say things they don't mean in a fit of anger which sometimes could be quite harsh, sometimes not. What if the person is unable to accept what the person who said mean things in a fit of anger? What would be the consequences? Loss of friendship? Loss of colleague? Loss of opportunity? Loss of a potential partner? Loss of a person you love? 

Yet when one is in anger, one's mind is also clouded. That even knowing the fact that whatever words they said in a fit of anger could hurt the person or they may even become physical but still they will continue on because they are angry and anger blinds them. Until when they calm down then they realised what they had done.

Perhaps, when one is feeling angry, they should try to take a deep breath and count to 10 to calm themselves down before confronting the person or the issue on hand.

I am one step towards my goal. MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!

Wish I could capture every moment..

I'm so tired now and feeling hungry too, which is weird. My appetite seemed to be pretty good today although my stomach is acting up again. Sigh. It is like a love hate relationship between my stomach and my body or mind or whatever.

Tired as I am now but I still want to post today's event because I am very touched that my part time staffs planned this special day to celebrate my birthday with me! I guess sometimes I really 身在福中不知福 (to live in plenty without appreciating it; not to know when one is well off) because sometimes I wonder why some people can be so close to their friends or have friends who love them and dote on them and I don't. Never did I realise that I am one of them too! I have many close friends who love me and dotes on me, meet up when I need some company, angry when I have well, inhale too much, talk to me when I'm bored, know when I'm feeling happy or down. I'm really lucky that we are still keeping in contact and I feared that we will drift apart are out of nothing.

They had planned to spend the WHOLE day with me, however with the haze, they had changed the plan and shifted it to a half day event. So I met up with my 2 boys in town first and as I was feeling the urge to sing K.. we went ahead. Even mister 'Changed Man' had planned on where to have dinner at. :)

 

I cannot remember the name of this restaurant however it cost just $1.50 a plate. So, the moment we sat down, we began to take the above plates. Not sure whether was it a blessing for we were seated at the start of the belt so we could have the freshest food or was it bad because we took so many plates that most of the people seated opposite or beside have nothing left for them. They kept looking over at our table. Was it because we were very noisy or because we kept taking the sashimi?

 

The silly girl dropped her sashimi into her soy sauce and she still ate it! Wish I could capture her expression but that will be very mean of me right? She is just too cute!

 

Somehow we finished this bottle of soy sauce...... Where did it all go?

 

We had barely sat down for 20 minutes and this is what we had covered! By then we were already generating a lot of attention from our neighbours.

 

And MORE in another 10 minutes.

A: Hi, can I have this xxx?

Waiter: How many do you want?

A: 10

W: !! *He really had that stunned look on his face and it took him a moment to register what A had said before acknowledging the order.*

 

By then we had hit 63 plate in another 10 minutes. Boys are still hungry while Mermaid and I are slowing down, XL had totally given up because she is a very small eater.

 

Not all are contributed by me. By then, people were already looking over at our table and the waiter who took our 10 plates order was no longer surprised when we asked for 10 more plates of certain dishes.

At the end, our plates count was 91 - just 6 of us eating. It was too late for us to order 9 plates of dessert because they had already closed their last order. The couple beside our table was trying to count the number of plates we had and we just told them the figure. The waitress nearly missed out on the two single plates because she couldn't see until we reminded her. We are so honest!

 

We ate too much that we did not have space for cake anymore. So I just brought it home uncut.

XL was so cute to apologise for it.. haha. I am already touched that they remembered and planned for my birthday celebration, what more can I ask for?

I really wished that I could just capture every funny moments with my camera so that I can look at it but it was impossible because the funny moments came suddenly and it will not be funny for me to ask them to do it again so that I could take a picture. So I just kept all of them in my mind where it will be archive forever.

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Decided to pack my room into the plastic boxes I'd bought from ikea today. I think my girls will go crazy over my books when they see it.

Finished packing the first level, moved on to the next. I have this weird hobby of collecting notebooks. I just love them very much and I can't bear to use them although I know it is kind of silly to have notebooks but not using them. I.just.can't.bear.to.use. CAN'T!!!!

I have quite a number of notebooks. The nice ones I keep, plain ones I use. I had a NatGeo notebook which was designed like an Indiana type of book with a cloth bag to hold it in but the material just felt sticky all around with some oil so I had no choice but to throw it away. Very heart pain! And I have another NatGeo notebook which I had decided to use it for my travels. So far, it contains my planned trip to Japan with TP. It holds a lot of memories where I will remember them whenever I opened it up to look. I had planned the places, the timing, the days to spend, the hotels we are staying, some basic itinerary and such. I would love to go back to Japan with TP again for she is my GPS while I am the map of interest. We just compliment each other well. Maybe instead of she finding a boyfriend, we can just be together. Haha! Tell her daddy that she's a gay and we will just adopt a son to carry on her family's legacy.


Below are some books I have with cute/interesting designs.

Cartoon Network, Disney Channel and Nickelodeon.


 

I think the latest design in Blue is the best looking design so far.


 

Other random books from WB, Cinemax and MTV.

I have MS book and Halo cover. Just wish I have more of Halo notebooks with John-117 fronting all the hard covers. I was so tempted to steal the standing posters of him in those game shops and put them on the wall so that I could look at him before I sleep.


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Anyway I guess it was fate that I picked up a call today when I was having an internal debate to whether should I answer it because it was an unfamiliar number. Now I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed. I shall talk about it after more updates later.

Did I mention that I dream of getting my results?
I dreamt that I passed 2 modules and failed 2 modules. Seemed like my term for year 2 will start late. Time to plan my trip with mummy E! Gonna have to meet her soon for lunch/dinner!

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I had been thinking, why am I being so persistent, still holding on when such thing happened to me not once but twice. I guess it came after a chat with my buddy P, where after 5 years then he knows what he wants - to settle down and lead a life with her. He kept saying that he was glad that she did not give up on him during the early stages and he was really grateful for that otherwise he would regret.

Maybe because of this that made me persevere on and keep fighting to keeping it going. Never give up. There are things going on round and round on my mind. Weighing this and that....

I guess it is time I make up my mind.